The last few days were really rough for me, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I reached a breaking point. I’ve been really stressed about many things, and my business is one of them. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed because I’m constantly working. I get home from working 8 hours at my 8-4:30 job, then I jump right into working on my business. Well, I might use the restroom first, lol, but from the time I get home, I’m working pretty much constantly. That’s why I haven’t been around Xanga much. It’s really tough to market and get the word out about my product, and I spend a lot of time on it. I also spend a lot of time interacting with my customers and keeping a good relationship with them, because that’s important.
So that’s just one thing I’ve been stressed about, because I want my business to grow and be successful. I honestly would have given up this fight if it wasn’t for the feedback that I get from everyone. Everyone who has bought candles from me tells me how much they love their order, and they can’t wait to get more. It’s that kind of feedback that feels so great, and lets me know that I’m doing the right thing, and that I’m moving in the right direction.
There are other things that have been stressing me out, but I don’t really want to talk about it. But yesterday I had a break down, and I knew it was coming. The way I had been feeling in the previous days leading up to it was a for sure sign that things were going to get ugly at some point…and that point was yesterday. I was so exhausted, I didn’t want to get out of bed. I mostly didn’t..only to go to dinner with my sister and her boyfriend, which I wasn’t in the mood for, but I went anyway. I wish I could have eaten more than I did..but oh well. I spent a lot of the day trying not to cry, and crying, and sleeping. At one point I had a panic attack, and I didn’t breathe for about 20 seconds..and I didn’t even gasp for breath. But I thought, ‘what if I just stop breathing?’ The reason behind this break down is only partially because of the stress with my business and being so busy..but most of it is for a reason I can’t talk about. So anyway. I slept a lot yesterday, cried a lot yesterday..and then I stayed up until 2:30 in the morning texting my sister about a lot of things.
So anyway. I don’t really know how I’m feeling this morning. Kind of indifferent, I suppose. I don’t really feel much of anything. I still don’t want to do anything. I would rather play video games all day…which I might do. I’ve been up for nearly three hours, not really doing much of anything, thinking about what I would like to do today..whilst it’s starting to waste away right in front of my face. As I was breaking down yesterday, I was texting a friend about all of this, and she knows what’s going on, and she wanted to come over today and help me with some things for my business..because I’m doing it all on my own..and she texted me a while ago and said she wasn’t going to be able to make it. Which is fine…I don’t blame her because it’s a long drive for her..an hour and a half one way. Whenever I drive to that area, I usually try and stay the night somewhere because I hate driving 3 hours in one day. And her dad is a truck driver and he’s home for the first time in a long time so she wanted to spend some time with him.
But anyway, I promised that when the podcast of the radio show talking about my candles was available, I would share the link….and here it is
https://soundcloud.com/freetalklive/ftl2013-02-18
Mark and Ian start talking about Savory Scents at about 1:01:30, or something like that. They have some very nice things to say
Also, some lovely ladies have done some awesome reviews for me as well
http://sassypaints2012.blogspot.com/2013/02/savory-scents-pumpkin-souffle-candle.html
http://www.kimberslacquerkorner.com/2013/02/npr-savory-scents-candles.html
http://wonderlandbeautyblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/review-savory-scents-hansel-gretels.html
So, I don’t know what I’m going to do right now…maybe play some video games? Not sure…but it probably won’t be anything constructive. Maybe I need another day to relax and give myself some time off.