I just wrote a blog post about Bitcoins. For those who aren’t that familiar with what Bitcoins are, I plan on doing a more in-depth blog about that soon. I posted the blog in two places…

DTOM:
http://donttreadonmeme.com/bitcoin-and-business/

My new liberty blog:
http://controlthesheep.wordpress.com/2013/04/01/bitcoin-and-business/

is that I don’t blog much here anymore because I have nothing to say that people are interested in. I either want to talk about my business, or I want to talk about liberty. Liberty is not a subject matter that is talked about here on Xanga, and when I do, it’s not something that’s received well, for some reason. I don’t know why that is…one would think that people want to be more free in their lives…and yet, I always see people defend the government for some reason or other. I’m devoting my life to liberty, and that’s what I find interesting. I do not care about celebrities and what they’re doing or not doing, I do not care about what’s in style, or anything of the sort. That kind of thing is superficial and does not interest me.

Meanwhile, I do miss reading the personal posts, and seeing how my friends are doing, and what’s going on in their lives. While I’m not around much, there are other ways you can keep in contact with me, such as Facebook, and I just started tooling around on Google+. I also started writing a liberty oriented blog on WordPress, and I made the first post today. If you’re interested in learning new ideas or if you want to interact with me there, the URL is controlthesheep.wordpress.com, and you can follow me there and see my thoughts on liberty and how I’m living my life.

I would like to say that I’m not shutting this Xanga down…but there is a reason I haven’t been around, and I do miss everyone. I love and appreciate the friendships I’ve made here, and I hope they continue. And who knows…I might be back with more regularity at some point in the future. As far as right now, blogging at Xanga isn’t very high on my priority list…mostly because the things I have going on are my business and trying to spread the ideas of liberty. And hopefully I’ll help guide some people to new ideas along the way.

I feel like I’m disappearing.

Yeah, I never had a chance to write a blog for here, but it is indeed my birthday today. I am 27 years old now. Birthday’s are starting to get weird…it’s an odd thing to think about, aging. When you’re younger, you never really think about how old you are. Now that I’m approaching 30, I think about my life, and the direction it’s going. I wonder if I’m doing the right thing. I wonder many things.

But anyway, since it’s my birthday, I created coupon code BIRTHDAY27 to get 27% off any orders in the shop. I was going to end it tonight, but since I didn’t post this here, I’ll extend it into tomorrow in case there’s anyone who wants to have a go at something they like in the shop. I also wanted to thank everyone who has supported me in my business, I appreciate it more than you know <3

https://www.etsy.com/shop/crazy2love

And now, I’m going to end my night by reading a book in bed…I hope everyone is well.

Savory Scents is featured in the second issue of an ezine called The Agorist Report. Read all about it here: https://theagoristreport.wordpress.com/2013/03/12/the-agorist-report-issue-2/

So here’s the definition of a citizen: “A person owing loyalty to and entitled by birth or naturalization to the protection of a state or nation”

It sounds like it’s a valid argument, then, that to classify yourself as a US citizen is legitimate, right? Wrong. That is incorrect. No government agency is obligated to protect you, including the police, as we can see in a number of court cases (one of these cases can be read about here)

Protect and serve!!!!!!! Cuz ‘Merica!!!!! And ALLLLLLL the laws that are there to “protect” you as a “US citizen” are completely legit, right?

Anyway, the above paragraph is not related to my point. My point is, if courts can rule that there is no obligation of the government to protect you from danger, which is the definition of a citizen, then the claim that there’s such a thing as a US citizen is false. I don’t know how you can interpret that in any other way. You could also go so far as to say that since there’s no obligation to protect, the wars for your “freedom” and the laws that are put in place to “protect” you from yourself or others are not there for you at all, but only to fund raise more money for the government and to control you, and are therefore illegitimate and false.

Okay, so the hard drive on my computer crashed a couple weeks ago, and I’ve got a new one and everything..however, I don’t know which driver I need to install to make the volume and brightness keys work again, using the blue Fn key..does anyone know?? If it helps, my computer is a Sony Vaio, PCG-71315L…

Thanks to everyone that rated me an A, it’s greatly appreciated!! Love you all!!

So, I’m trying to write a BDSM erotica and I’m having difficulties. I’m just not feeling it. I started writing it last night just before I went to bed…as I was falling asleep, I was thinking about BDSM and sex and needless to say, my dreams last night were filled with sex. Multiple sex dreams, hahaha. Since I’m having a hard time writing, I’m going to do some reading…

Why yes, I am back. So a couple of weeks ago, the hard drive on my computer took a dive. Good thing I had all my files backed up on an external hard drive.. So I ordered a new hard drive, got an operating system, had some trouble installing drivers so I could connect to the interwebs, but finally, here I am!

So anyway, something that has been on my mind is bad relationships. Toxic ones. Relationships where people call each other horrible names when they fight, and they fight often. Nasty fights that get one or both people involved in the relationship hurt…the ones that happen all the time. Toxic relationships don’t have to be just physical violence. I think you can be in love with someone, and have love for someone, and still be in a bad relationship.

So the question I pose is, at what point do you leave the relationship? At what point do you give up on love?

And oh, my new favorite song…

The last few days were really rough for me, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I reached a breaking point. I’ve been really stressed about many things, and my business is one of them. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed because I’m constantly working. I get home from working 8 hours at my 8-4:30 job, then I jump right into working on my business. Well, I might use the restroom first, lol, but from the time I get home, I’m working pretty much constantly. That’s why I haven’t been around Xanga much. It’s really tough to market and get the word out about my product, and I spend a lot of time on it. I also spend a lot of time interacting with my customers and keeping a good relationship with them, because that’s important.

So that’s just one thing I’ve been stressed about, because I want my business to grow and be successful. I honestly would have given up this fight if it wasn’t for the feedback that I get from everyone. Everyone who has bought candles from me tells me how much they love their order, and they can’t wait to get more. It’s that kind of feedback that feels so great, and lets me know that I’m doing the right thing, and that I’m moving in the right direction.

There are other things that have been stressing me out, but I don’t really want to talk about it. But yesterday I had a break down, and I knew it was coming. The way I had been feeling in the previous days leading up to it was a for sure sign that things were going to get ugly at some point…and that point was yesterday. I was so exhausted, I didn’t want to get out of bed. I mostly didn’t..only to go to dinner with my sister and her boyfriend, which I wasn’t in the mood for, but I went anyway. I wish I could have eaten more than I did..but oh well. I spent a lot of the day trying not to cry, and crying, and sleeping. At one point I had a panic attack, and I didn’t breathe for about 20 seconds..and I didn’t even gasp for breath. But I thought, ‘what if I just stop breathing?’ The reason behind this break down is only partially because of the stress with my business and being so busy..but most of it is for a reason I can’t talk about. So anyway. I slept a lot yesterday, cried a lot yesterday..and then I stayed up until 2:30 in the morning texting my sister about a lot of things.

So anyway. I don’t really know how I’m feeling this morning. Kind of indifferent, I suppose. I don’t really feel much of anything. I still don’t want to do anything. I would rather play video games all day…which I might do. I’ve been up for nearly three hours, not really doing much of anything, thinking about what I would like to do today..whilst it’s starting to waste away right in front of my face. As I was breaking down yesterday, I was texting a friend about all of this, and she knows what’s going on, and she wanted to come over today and help me with some things for my business..because I’m doing it all on my own..and she texted me a while ago and said she wasn’t going to be able to make it. Which is fine…I don’t blame her because it’s a long drive for her..an hour and a half one way. Whenever I drive to that area, I usually try and stay the night somewhere because I hate driving 3 hours in one day. And her dad is a truck driver and he’s home for the first time in a long time so she wanted to spend some time with him.

But anyway, I promised that when the podcast of the radio show talking about my candles was available, I would share the link….and here it is https://soundcloud.com/freetalklive/ftl2013-02-18

Mark and Ian start talking about Savory Scents at about 1:01:30, or something like that. They have some very nice things to say

Also, some lovely ladies have done some awesome reviews for me as well

http://sassypaints2012.blogspot.com/2013/02/savory-scents-pumpkin-souffle-candle.html

http://www.kimberslacquerkorner.com/2013/02/npr-savory-scents-candles.html

http://wonderlandbeautyblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/review-savory-scents-hansel-gretels.html

So, I don’t know what I’m going to do right now…maybe play some video games? Not sure…but it probably won’t be anything constructive. Maybe I need another day to relax and give myself some time off.

..in a bad mood. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way. I don’t want to do anything, or talk to anyone. It’s one of those days where I just want to curl up in a ball and shutter the world away. But I can’t. I have things to do. I need to catch up in class.

Bleh.

Instead of wallowing, I just created a contest, maybe that will cheer me up…lol.

To participate, go to http://www.facebook.com/cksavoryscents and share the status that says “Share this status..” and you can win two 2oz candles of your choice. Contest runs for the next 24 hours… have fun =]

And even though I’ve got “the mean reds” (Breakfast at Tiffany’s fans….), I hope everyone else is doing okay today. <3