The last few days were really rough for me, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I reached a breaking point. I’ve been really stressed about many things, and my business is one of them. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed because I’m constantly working. I get home from working 8 hours at my 8-4:30 job, then I jump right into working on my business. Well, I might use the restroom first, lol, but from the time I get home, I’m working pretty much constantly. That’s why I haven’t been around Xanga much. It’s really tough to market and get the word out about my product, and I spend a lot of time on it. I also spend a lot of time interacting with my customers and keeping a good relationship with them, because that’s important.

So that’s just one thing I’ve been stressed about, because I want my business to grow and be successful. I honestly would have given up this fight if it wasn’t for the feedback that I get from everyone. Everyone who has bought candles from me tells me how much they love their order, and they can’t wait to get more. It’s that kind of feedback that feels so great, and lets me know that I’m doing the right thing, and that I’m moving in the right direction.

There are other things that have been stressing me out, but I don’t really want to talk about it. But yesterday I had a break down, and I knew it was coming. The way I had been feeling in the previous days leading up to it was a for sure sign that things were going to get ugly at some point…and that point was yesterday. I was so exhausted, I didn’t want to get out of bed. I mostly didn’t..only to go to dinner with my sister and her boyfriend, which I wasn’t in the mood for, but I went anyway. I wish I could have eaten more than I did..but oh well. I spent a lot of the day trying not to cry, and crying, and sleeping. At one point I had a panic attack, and I didn’t breathe for about 20 seconds..and I didn’t even gasp for breath. But I thought, ‘what if I just stop breathing?’ The reason behind this break down is only partially because of the stress with my business and being so busy..but most of it is for a reason I can’t talk about. So anyway. I slept a lot yesterday, cried a lot yesterday..and then I stayed up until 2:30 in the morning texting my sister about a lot of things.

So anyway. I don’t really know how I’m feeling this morning. Kind of indifferent, I suppose. I don’t really feel much of anything. I still don’t want to do anything. I would rather play video games all day…which I might do. I’ve been up for nearly three hours, not really doing much of anything, thinking about what I would like to do today..whilst it’s starting to waste away right in front of my face. As I was breaking down yesterday, I was texting a friend about all of this, and she knows what’s going on, and she wanted to come over today and help me with some things for my business..because I’m doing it all on my own..and she texted me a while ago and said she wasn’t going to be able to make it. Which is fine…I don’t blame her because it’s a long drive for her..an hour and a half one way. Whenever I drive to that area, I usually try and stay the night somewhere because I hate driving 3 hours in one day. And her dad is a truck driver and he’s home for the first time in a long time so she wanted to spend some time with him.

But anyway, I promised that when the podcast of the radio show talking about my candles was available, I would share the link….and here it is https://soundcloud.com/freetalklive/ftl2013-02-18

Mark and Ian start talking about Savory Scents at about 1:01:30, or something like that. They have some very nice things to say

Also, some lovely ladies have done some awesome reviews for me as well

http://sassypaints2012.blogspot.com/2013/02/savory-scents-pumpkin-souffle-candle.html

http://www.kimberslacquerkorner.com/2013/02/npr-savory-scents-candles.html

http://wonderlandbeautyblog.blogspot.com/2013/02/review-savory-scents-hansel-gretels.html

So, I don’t know what I’m going to do right now…maybe play some video games? Not sure…but it probably won’t be anything constructive. Maybe I need another day to relax and give myself some time off.

..in a bad mood. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way. I don’t want to do anything, or talk to anyone. It’s one of those days where I just want to curl up in a ball and shutter the world away. But I can’t. I have things to do. I need to catch up in class.

Bleh.

Instead of wallowing, I just created a contest, maybe that will cheer me up…lol.

To participate, go to http://www.facebook.com/cksavoryscents and share the status that says “Share this status..” and you can win two 2oz candles of your choice. Contest runs for the next 24 hours… have fun =]

And even though I’ve got “the mean reds” (Breakfast at Tiffany’s fans….), I hope everyone else is doing okay today. <3

As I mentioned quite some time ago, Mark from Free Talk Live contacted me about a gift basket idea he had for the Shriners, the female listeners of the show. In order to be a Shriner, you have to send a validated photo to the website. You can see the page HERE. You can also see the Savory Scents banner there that will link you to my Etsy shop.

Mark and Ian, who are business partners for this syndicated radio show, started this contest this evening. Every month, the pool of new submissions to the page will be entered in a random drawing to win a gift basket of three candles from Savory Scents.

Free Talk Live is on over 100 radio stations, 2 XM stations, and they also have a podcast. They are a radio show that is dedicated to spreading the ideas of liberty. They are stationed in Keene, NH, and they are participants in the Free State Project. Once you start listening to this show, you will hear all kinds of stories that show how a person really isn’t free in this country..the stories you don’t hear from main stream media. But, all is not lost. The Free State Project has done a lot to ensure and help NH become the freest state in the union and make it so that more and more actions are completely voluntary, and it’s only just gotten started.

But anyway, they started the gift basket idea this evening, and you can hear it on their Soundcloud page HERE. They start talking about Savory Scents at about 1:01:30, but I would recommend listening to the entire podcast, because it really is a great show.

Also, I completely forgot to update this here, but Ket and I have partnered up and we have a little gift basket of our own For $14, you can get a Mermaid Blood candle and a bottle of Mermaid Blood nail polish. It’s really an awesome collaboration, and I’m so excited about it XD

You can grab this awesome deal HERE.

@XxrockxXxgirlxX is the winner of the contest!!! Congrats ^_^ Message me what candle you would like, and your address

So, I got into a car accident yesterday

I was driving to the post office, and the building was on the left side. I was looking for a parking spot, because the parking lot was full. The lane was wide, but it was NOT a two lane street, so I was driving in the middle of my lane, and I was driving kind of slow, like 10-15 miles an hour… I saw a parking spot on the left side, on the street. I was going to turn left into the employee parking lot for the post office so I could turn around, and then parallel park on the street. There wasn’t any oncoming traffic, so I go to turn left, and BAM! My drivers side front scrapes along this other car that went OVER the DOUBLE YELLOW line, which means that you aren’t supposed PASS, in order to pass me on the left. What the FUCK. I wasn’t going fast enough for you or something? The speed limit is only 30 anyway!!

So we get out of our cars and he starts screaming at me, like it was my fault!! He tried to say that my car was all the way to the right, which it wasn’t, because if you looked at the broken glass on the road from my fog light, I hit him a few inches to the right of the double yellow line, meaning his car was almost completely over the yellow line, and my car was pretty much in the middle of the wide lane. So he screams at me for like 5 minutes, and I argued against him, calmly, and he goes, “Okay, do you want to deal with this through insurance,” and I said yeah, whatever. Which, that SHOULD have been my first clue that the asshole didn’t want the cops involved, because you’re always supposed to call them where there’s damage involved, because insurance companies like the police reports of the accident. So I turn to go get my insurance card, and the motherfucker gets in his car and fuckin drives off!!! He probably didn’t have insurance, AND he knew that it WAS his fault.

So I park in the post office parking lot, and call the cops and a police officer comes to make a report of the accident. He was very nice and everything, took pictures and details of the vehicle and the guy, which, I didn’t get a plate number, so the case itself is pretty much useless, except for helping my insurance claim. It will go on my record as not being my fault, so it shouldn’t raise my rates.

My fog light is a little broken, and from the end of my headlight until the wheel well of the car, it’s a little scraped up and dented, and the wheel has some scrapes on it. The side mirror is also busted off. Then when I started driving, I noticed that in order to drive straight, my steering wheel has to be rotated a little to left, and as I’m driving, it wants to pull to the left, and when I keep it straight, something in the steering mechanism ticks. It also feels loose to steer my car…it just doesn’t feel safe to drive. I got it home, though, and I have an appointment for an estimate at the service center that my insurance has.

The thing that really sucks is that I have a $500 deductible, and I’m not sure how I’m going to swing that. I have some candle orders that will help a little, and if some people could maybe grab a candle or two? That would certainly help! I listed some new things this morning in the shop:

And remember, 20% off through this evening, 10PM CST, and you can use VAL2013 at checkout

http://www.etsy.com/shop/crazy2love

I wanted to say that I love all of you, and all of my friends mean a lot to me. You’re all wonderful people, and some of you are pretty close friends, and thank you for that friendship <3

So, I’ve added some new things to the shop that I’m very excited about!! I made some heart shaped tarts! They have mini tarts embedded in them, and I think they are soooo cute!! Also, stick til the end of the post to see a special sale going on, and a contest XD

Breakin’ Dragon Hearts:

Tarts made with Dragon’s Blood: An earthy fragrance infused with cedarwood, orange and patchouli essential oils

Crushed Candy Hearts are made with Cotton Candy: Sugary strawberry and sweet vanilla notes.

Also, I’m going to have a contest. For every person that Recs this post, comments, and “Likes” the Facebook page, you will win a 4oz candle of your choice!! Don’t worry, if you have already liked the Facebook page, all you have to do is rec and comment on this post! The contest will end Saturday night, so good luck!!

As for the sale, you can use coupon code VAL2013 at checkout for 20% off ^_^ I should mention that Cannabis Flower is completely sold out, and the 2oz size for Rings of Rainbows are sold out.

As always, if you have custom requests, I will be happy to make them!! I have a few that I need to do soon, but the kitchen is being used this evening

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY! <3

Yes, I had to put that in all caps! The awesome lady behind SassyPaints blog wrote up a very nice review of my candles:

http://sassypaints2012.blogspot.com/2013/02/savory-scents-pumpkin-souffle-candle.html

And, today I have had a banana and a half, an orange, a muffin, and a cup of soup, all spaced out…so, I’m not sure what I’m going to do for dinner though..about to head into the kitchen for more candle related things..and I’m nearly bouncing off my seat for excitement about some upcoming things….GAHHHHH!!!!

So, I hope everyone is well…

But in my defense, it wasn’t a lie at the time.

On Saturday, a good friend from high school came up and visited, and we went to dinner. We ate at a Mexican restaurant, and the subject of weight came up, very briefly. I said that I’m fine the way that I am right now, and I just don’t want to get any bigger. At the time I said it, I believed what I said to be the truth. I did feel fine with how I look..or so I thought.

I have this new job that I’ve been at for a month now. For the last several weeks, it’s been “casual Friday” every day for the month of January and the first week of this month. This week we had to start wearing business casual again. Either way it went, if we had “casual Friday” every day for forever, or not, I would have had to buy new pants. I have three pairs of jeans, and one of them is almost garbage, since they are almost worn through in the thighs. And, I only have one pair of dress slacks that fits me okay (since I’m short, MOST pants are too long..I would have to buy my waist size in petite, and even then they are still too long, and I had these tailored a few years ago). So, I went after work today to buy some pants for work. First, I went to Salvation Army. I tried on about 15 pairs of pants. Understandably, I knew they wouldn’t all fit, and only 2 fit okay at the waist..but one of them were way too long, and the other one had wide legs..which make me look even fatter and shorter.

Since none of these pants fit, and there was nothing else I could try on, I left the store dejected. I even started crying on the way to Goodwill. I tried about 15 more pants on, and one of them fit okay..I’m not thrilled with the size of the leg..it’s wide, but not as wide as others I had tried on that fit okay in the waist, but were just too wide-legged. The other pair I bought didn’t fit in the waist, but they were my size in height, a rare feat. I bought them because they are only a size or two too small, and I decided as I was trying all these pants on that I am not happy with the way that I am. I don’t even look at my body in the mirror, ever. I did a few times as I was trying all these pants on, and I felt terrible. It’s so depressing, when you can’t find any pants to wear. Jeans would have been fine, if I had been shopping for those. But dress pants are a different cut, it seems, and they all seem to fit all wrong.

I started watching The Biggest Loser online tonight when I got home. I paused it so I could write this, because it’s on my mind. I get very emotional whenever I watch this show (I skipped last season..), because their stories touch me. And something dawned on me…if you have a problem with your weight, if you’re underweight or overweight, the reason is an emotional and mental one. Something is wrong inside, and it manifests itself on the outside. I’m not saying that this is correct all the time..but it seems like a lot of the time, that’s the case.

I haven’t even been trying to lose weight lately, because I thought I was okay with myself..I truly did. And, I’m not saying that I want to be stick thin, or even thin at all. I just want to be..less. I don’t even know what my goal is right now, but I feel like I have to do something. But, I also feel like I don’t have time. I don’t have the time to go to the gym for an hour every day and do the treadmill or whatever..and I don’t have the time to cook. I should be doing homework right now. But I’m not. I’m putting it off so I can blog about this and watch Biggest Loser. I know HOW to eat healthy, but cooking takes so much time. The preparation, cooking, and cleaning up afterwards can take up to an hour and a half, or more. I don’t have that kind of time. I’m at work or driving to and from work for 9.5-10 hours a day. I spend a lot of time researching for my business, or making candles, or networking, or marketing, to try and grow my business. It’s HARD, trying to market, and it takes a lot of time and effort. I also have school. I’m dropping out of one of my classes, because I just don’t have the time to do two classes, work, and try and grow my business like I want it to grow. Many times, I find that I don’t even go to bed until midnight, when I have to be up 6 hours later…and yes, even adults need a healthy 8-9 hours of sleep a night.

These days, I find myself eating once a day, maybe twice. Yesterday was the first time I ate twice in days. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I would rather eat fresh, organic food, non-GMO, healthy stuff. Instead, I had Culver’s for dinner, for the convenience, because I was meaning to come home and start working on candles. Now it’s too late for that, and it’s too late to go work out, because you shouldn’t work out 3 hours or less before you go to bed.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I know I need to stop eating processed foods and stop drinking soda. But I feel like I need the caffeine to keep me going, because I’m not getting enough sleep :/

I have been so busy, I feel like I barely have time to take a breath, much less do some blogging :/

I’ve been working really hard on a lot of new things for my business, and there are some that I can’t announce yet

But, one thing I can say are the items I listed today:

Lavender: This relaxing candle is made with a wonderful combination of soy wax, other vegetable waxes, and food grade paraffin. It’s sold in a lovely 8oz tureen jar, and colored a light purple. It’s fragranced with Lavender and softened with a soft white musk. Relax in the evening with a candle, bubble bath, and soothing music to put you in a sleepy mood. Available in 8oz, 4oz, and 2oz.

Cannabis Flower: This candle is a very down to earthy scent, made with a wonderful combination of soy wax, other vegetable waxes, and food grade paraffin. It’s sold in a lovely 4oz jelly jar, and colored an olive green. It’s fragranced with Cannabis Flower: Shimmering green fern and cannabis notes unfold to reveal a rich floral accord of violet and gardenia in this fantasy scent. A warm blend of cashmere wood surrounds the floralcy, while sensual undertones of musk and golden amber soften the scent from within. These notes meld beautifully to create a soft yet rich fragrance. Available in 4oz and 2oz sizes.

Speaking of 2oz, aren’t these jars adorable?!?

This candle is made with a wonderful combination of soy wax, other vegetable waxes, and food grade paraffin. It’s sold in a lovely 4oz jelly jar, colored a lovely blue, and embellished with gorgeous glitters in teal, mint green, gold, and pink. This one smells just like fruit loops!! It begins with top notes of lemon rinds, lime, and grapefruit; middle notes of lemongrass, lily, and verbena; and base notes of vanilla sugar. Light this candle and let the sugary tones take you back to you back to your childhood when you ate Fruit Loops in the morning, watching Duck Tails or The Smurfs! Or, if you still eat Fruit Loops, that’s okay too Available in 4oz and 2oz sizes.

This one I haven’t listed yet, but it’s Jasmine and lily of the valley with a strong background of coconut. Very lovely fragrance! So far, it’s available in 4oz and 2oz sizes.

So, I went and bought a ton of sample size fragrance oils, and each sample size makes four 4oz jars, and two 2oz jars. I can’t wait to make more of these samples!!

Also, I went and bought myself a nicer printer that I can print my own labels on, which is super exciting for me. I love it so far!! As far as pricing goes, the 8oz tureen jars are $8, 4oz jelly jars are $5, and 2oz jars are $2. I was trying to get away from using tins, because I feel like glass holds the fragrance better, and you can see the colors, but someone said that they like the tins, so I may bring them back.

I’m also busy with school and work…I feel exhausted sometimes, and then I know I have to chill out for a little bit. I’ll watch some movies on Netflix or something.

So, stay tuned for some very special announcements in the next week or two!!!

I hope everyone has been well

Oh, and I almost forgot…there’s a couple of scents that I am currently sold out of, but will be making more..and I’m also going to expand the Midnight series a little

Midnight in Paris: This intoxicating candle is made with a wonderful combination of soy wax, other vegetable waxes, and food grade paraffin. It’s sold in a lovely 4oz jelly jar so you can see the deep and rich blue color, and it’s topped off with black and red glitter at the top. The fragrance is a warm and inviting combination of several oils that meld and blend together: warm sandalwood, vetiver, cedar and musk, with enlightening spicy notes of sage and thyme to combine with bright citrus notes.

Queen’s Midnight Bloom: This sweetly intoxicating candle is made with a wonderful combination of soy wax, other vegetable waxes, and food grade paraffin. It’s sold in a lovely 4oz jelly jar, colored a rich red, and topped off with deep red glitter. This candle is fragranced with night blooming lily that exude notes of a sensuous floral musk paired with cassis and ripe berries.

You can view my Etsy store HERE.

I’ve had internet for a few days now, and I feel like I haven’t had much time to be around here. I’ve been working really hard on my business, and the stress caught up to me today. I’ve been exhausted all day. I had a lot of homework to do, but I couldn’t concentrate. I’ve been laying in bed all day watching Netflix and sleeping. I’ve also felt sad and depressed. I tried taking the quiz without reading the rest of the chapter and failed. I have 2 hours to try again, but I don’t think I have the energy. I just want to sleep…