Or, 16. The following is what I have left for candles in case you don’t have Facebook or didn’t like the page and want some…I’ve already sold half my stock :O

Available scents in 2oz

Cotton Candy- 2

Sweet Snow- 2

Coconut Hibiscus- 2

Hazelnut Coffee- 2

Spring Rain- 2

 

Available scents in 4oz

Hazelnut Coffee- 1

If you’re interested in any of these, let me know….

Yesterday was an exhausting day, making candles. I worked for 12 hours…I am not sure the last time I even worked 12 hours was, lmao! But I was on my feet for a good portion of that, and my feet forgot what it felt like to be standing a lot of the day, working. Even before I got laid off I had a desk job…

I’m still tired…I might go back to sleep for a little bit, since I couldn’t fall asleep until sometime after 3:30 in the morning, and it’s just past 8:30…meh.

I have to go to FedEx Kinkos today to print my candle labels, since my printer isn’t good enough to make them look nice…

My mind is mostly business oriented lately…

I have homework to do for tomorrow but I don’t want to do it :/

Sorry if I’m a little boring at the moment…here’s something that’s awesome…

Update:

Just got home..going to start putting the labels on the tins and getting ready for shipping! If you would like any candles, let me know!

I got kind of a late start making candles today..not until about noon. I’ve been working mostly non-stop in the kitchen ever since then (about 5.5 hours) and I’ve made two scents: Coconut Hibiscus and Sweet Snow. Coconut Hibiscus has lids on, starting to cure. Tomorrow afternoon I can test them. I’ve got Cotton Candy burning..and it’s a light, sweet scent…it’s so light because I only got 1oz as a sample size and I made it with a pound of wax..when you’re actually supposed to use about 1.5oz of fragrance per pound of wax…so it’s a bit lighter than what it normally would be, but it still smells good. So I’m tired for making candles for so long…even though I had a coffee when I first started. Taking a break..hoping I can make the other two still tonight.

But I’m sad because my dad wants to get a 1 bedroom apartment and my sister wants to move back with her mom, so that means I either live on my own or go to live with my mother. First, I can’t afford to live on my own, at all. Second, I don’t want to live with my mother. Her crazy drunkness wears me down. Plus, it’s about 80 miles one way away from school…so I would be putting 480 miles a week on my car :/ I already put a ton of miles on it this summer while I was living down there. Plus, that house is so goddamn disgusting. No one cleans after themselves…and the toilets are fucking nasty. Especially upstairs off the living room, where my step dad goes to the bathroom…there’s piss and shit all over the toilet. I never cook while I’m there because the kitchen is gross from everyone else (if people would only clean it as they go…instead of leaving dirty dishes piled up in the sink, crumbs and food all over the counters and floor…) and I can’t stand cooking in a filthy kitchen.

Just the thought of having to live with my mother makes me want to cry. I don’t know how my youngest sister can bear it…maybe that’s why she has psychosis… Damnit I just feel so depressed now. Ugh and I am very close to crying…holding back a lump and it hurts…I have to go…

Just thought I should mention that my dad can’t afford to pay all the bills here anymore and it would be cheaper for him to get an apartment..and I can’t afford to pay more, in case anyone was going to ask…

I’m so excited you guys, you don’t even know…I’m sure you guys are sick of hearing about it…but it’s pretty much become my life…I’ve been thinking of skipping class tonight so I can make candles

Anyway, enough about that. What else should I talk about? Well, I’m sick, it’s developing. That’s kind of why I want to make the candles so they can cure…I might be bed-ridden for a couple of days soon. When I get sick, it’s not like a normal cold. I get a bad fever and sweats and I usually end up in a delirious sleep for a couple of days, wrestling with the covers because I’m too hot under them and cold without them and sweating at the same time. UGH. And, my head feels like it’s going to fall off because it feels so heavy. Just saying..this is more than likely what I’m looking forward to. It’s started. My throat is sore and I have a runny/stuffy nose. FUUUUU

Trying to perfect the method of gluing ribbon onto votives, because that’s one of my ideas…hmm. We’ll see. There’s definitely going to be paint..

You know that gritty eye feeling when you’re getting sick? Yeah..that :/

What else is new? I don’t know. Probably going to be moving soon. Dad wants to move closer to work, so he’s been looking at places. I know you don’t give a shit about the menial things in my life..but I just don’t have much to say, I guess. So I’ll just go before you start crying for boredom, if you haven’t stopped reading already…

By the way, if you haven’t made your way to my FB page, this is one of the logos:

I think it’s gorgeous

By the way, I thought I should mention I had a dream where Xanga was being advertised on TV O.o

Heh, clever play on words, no?

Okay, so I have some totally awesome designs from @None_May_Have_Her, I think she did a fantastic job helping me out with labels and designs, and she’s still working on some things, so yay!

So my page is kind of up and running…I’ve added some pictures and notes about what’s going on. I get the supplies Tuesday..so I was thinking of running a small batch on Tuesday night when I get home from class. I will have Wednesday and Thursday to play with it. The candles will need some time to cure before I can test them, 24 hours. THEN, I will finally be able to sell them after being tested. I’m thinking of keeping my candles white instead of coloring them. Thoughts? I was planning on decorating the glass jars once I start making glass jars in the future, and white wax would look best with the designs I’m thinking of.

So, please, “Like” my page on Facebook and spread the word!! Love you!!

By the way, this, made by @QuantumStorm, is totally the winner!

So a huge thank you to @LKJSlain for helping me brainstorm names last night!! I was having troubles…I wanted to name them Lush Candles, but that name was taken!! GAH. Then I was like, Hmmm…Savory Candles? Then Lisa fine-tuned it to Savory Scents, and I LOVE it!!

So I was messing around, trying to design labels to put on the tins, and came up with this:

What do you think?? Kind of simple, but I think it’s cute. I would change the color depending on what the scent is…so Sweet Snow would be a mint green.

HMMM. Are there any designers?? Maybe I’ll hold another contest to see who can design me some labels!!!! What do you think of that idea?? If you’re a designer and interested in designing labels for me, let me know!!! Seriously just thought of that as I was typing… So yeah, maybe I will hold another contest…a design contest…if you’re interested in that, comment below!!! The prize, of course, would be free candles

For a long time, years, every once in a while I get this strong, some sort of natural maternal instinct to have a baby. It’s just really hard to explain, how it feels. I just want a baby. I want children, and I feel it in my bones.

So, taking child psychology doesn’t feel like a good idea right now. I’m reading about the prenatal period, and I’m just astounded by life. It’s so amazing…and this feeling to be a mother is so overwhelming right now. I read about the different actions the fetus starts doing in the third month and the development and changes that occur…and I got really choked up..I had tears in my eyes.

What the fuck is wrong with me…

So I’ve determined the results of the contest. The winning scents are: Hazelnut Coffee, Sweet Snow, Coconut Hibiscus, and Spring Rain. Additionally, when I ordered supplies from one of the sites, I got to choose a free 1 oz sample of a fragrance, so I chose Cotton Candy! There was actually a tie between Butternut Pumpkin and and Hazelnut Coffee and between Coconut Hibiscus and Coconut Lime Verbana, so I broke the tie

As for choosing the winner of the contest, what I tried to do was find a random generator to input the user names of those who entered, but could only find number generators. So, using the order that people commented in, I numbered everyone 1-31. I went to randomgenerator.net and put those numbers in, and the result was number 7, who happened to be @Foodhog!! Congratulations!!

I’ve placed the order for the supplies, and the one site told me that they ship same-day for orders placed before 4PM, so yay!! I should have all the supplies sometime next week and then I can start! I’m super excited to see how it works out

Soooo, now that business is done, I am going to eat and then I have three chapters to read and a paper to write before tomorrow afternoon for child psychology!

Update:

BOTH of the candle supply orders I placed this morning have shipped today!!! Yay for fast service!!! XD

So I’m thinking about putting an order in today to get my candle-making supplies. I’m only going to buy a few things, just to test it out, but I need some help…I’m going to run a little contest.

I’m having trouble deciding which scents I want to try out. I’m going to list a few categories with some scents associated with each and I want everyone to vote on which scents they think I should try. Everyone who comments with their suggestions will be put into a pool and I will randomly select one winner to receive a free sample of each scent with free shipping! Yay!! I will also take the scent most voted for in each category as the scents I will order. One entry per person, and spam does not count. So, here we go:

Autumn Scents

Apple Cinnamon: hot baked apples sprinkled with cinnamon
Autumn Harvest: nice fall blend of orange, grapefruit, and clove
Butternut Pumpkin: a blend of butternut squash, pumpkin puree, cinnamon, clove, and vanilla
Hazelnut Coffee: a rich, full bodied aroma accompanied by the buttery appeal of freshly roasted European hazelnuts and a touch of indulgent cream
Caramel Toffee: sweet creamy blend with light hints of butter and vanilla

Winter/Holiday Scents

Sweet Holiday Blend Coffee: spice blend of cinnamon, clove, nutmeg, and ginger wrapped around a buttery almond accord with a sweet vanilla and maple dry down.
Spruce Orchard: blend of citrus, pine, and rosemary on a light woody background
Sweet Snow: a soft mint with a vanilla background
Victorian Christmas: top notes include fruity aspects with fir needle, mid-notes of warm baked apple and cinnamon with base notes of warm, sweet woodsy scents and patchouli
Hansel & Gretal’s House: a rich base of cocoa and vanilla bean supports mid notes of nutmeg, honey, ginger, and clove with top notes of lemon and orange
Christmas Cookie: French vanilla with butter, spices, and milk

Fruity Scents

Coconut Hibiscus: light floral notes of hibiscus, violet, and peony are blended on a base of creamy vanilla and sweet coconut
Tropic Wind: an exotic fruity salad with tropical oranges, ripe melons, fresh peaches, shredded coconut, and apples
Monkey Farts: vanilla base notes support mid notes of kiwi, strawberries and bubble gum, with top notes of juicy grapefruit and fresh bananas
White Nectarine & Pink Coral: the luscious fruitiness of sweet peach, pineapple chunks, and orange slices blended with enchanting floral notes of honeysuckle, rose and jasmine on a dry down of soft, soothing musk
Coconut Lime Verbana: juicy citrus fruits such as lemon and lime on a delicate heart of creamy coconut and fresh florals. Vanilla notes and sandlewood round out the blend

Fresh Scents

Cotton Bouquet: a sweet floral with jasmine, violets, and lavender with a smooth woody background
Country Breeze: a complex blend of sharp green notes with a hint of ozone on a strong rose background
Rainforest Blossoms: green ozonic top notes with a clean linen and wild rose floral heart ending with damp earth, moss, and woodland musk
Rain: a blend of rose and lily of the valley on a strong musk background
Spring Rain: clean refreshing blend with light fruity tones enhanced with hints of florals and spices

**Please note that these scent names are provided by the website I’ll be getting my scents from. I’m still going to research more places to get fragrances, provided this test run goes well. I may or may not change the names to my own choosing once I make the candles and see what they smell like once burned.

***I will end this contest at 10am my time tomorrow morning, which is central time.

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Okay folks, voting is closed!! Watching a movie while I do administrative work (heh, sounds official, doesn’t it? ), meaning tallying votes and finding a random generator to pick a winner! I will post results later today, and thank you everyone for your participation!!

So last week I posted about being depressed…and it turned into a breakdown. A horrible one. I cried on Saturday night pretty bad and I’ve been feeling sad, without really knowing why. Then yesterday and last night were really bad. I was feeling sad after I messed something up in the morning and I felt really bad about it. Pretty much felt like an asshole. Then I had more bad conversations and thoughts, ending the night really not well. I couldn’t write any Facebook statuses that were on my mind because I felt like I wasn’t saying anything right. I tried reading something but re-read the same line 5 times and couldn’t comprehend it. I was told I needed sleep, but I felt like I wouldn’t be able to if I tried.

Then I cried so hard I started coughing and banged my fist on my desk 3 times, really hard. At first I thought I broke something it hurt so bad. When I woke up my hand hurt, and it still does. But it’s not swollen, so I figure everything is fine…I can move everything. I wanted to scream I was hurting so bad emotionally. Cutting vaguely occurred to me, but I didn’t because I know people would have been even more upset with me. I wanted to throw my phone and destroy something. The urge was so powerful I couldn’t touch my phone. It took a little bit, but I calmed down enough to send a message I wanted to send and try to sleep. It took me an hour to fall asleep.

This morning I woke up and forced myself to have a better day. Talking with someone helped with that and I feel a lot better. I don’t think I’m up to 100% yet, but thankfully the breakdown is behind me and there’s no where to go from here but up.

Just thought I should share why I haven’t been around…I feel like nothing I say would bear any significance to anyone..that no one really cares.

I’m feeling depressed. I don’t know why. I know that I emulate strength most of the time, but everyone has their days. I don’t even…want to write this on here, or anywhere. I don’t know why I am. There’s so much… My depressed state is making me aggressive and agitated and in a general pissed off mood. I wish I could just go to sleep.