September 13, 2012
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Taking this class was a bad idea…
For a long time, years, every once in a while I get this strong, some sort of natural maternal instinct to have a baby. It’s just really hard to explain, how it feels. I just want a baby. I want children, and I feel it in my bones.
So, taking child psychology doesn’t feel like a good idea right now. I’m reading about the prenatal period, and I’m just astounded by life. It’s so amazing…and this feeling to be a mother is so overwhelming right now. I read about the different actions the fetus starts doing in the third month and the development and changes that occur…and I got really choked up..I had tears in my eyes.
What the fuck is wrong with me…
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I can honestly say that I have never had that feeling before. However, I can say that carrying a child is so muchmore amazing than any book can tell you. Despite the fact I hated being pregnant, I did like experiencing John growing inside me. I remember when he first started responding to sound. He really like laughter and he hated the sound of the shower and the vaccuum cleaner. I used to feel guilty taking a shower. You will be a good mother some day. You will experience the joy and pain of carrying a child when it is your turn.
I went through a period where I wanted a baby, but the timing was all wrong. Then again, is the timing ever right? I think it’s only natural for women to feel like that.
It’s a crazy world, and having a baby is insane, the whole ninth month process till the very end when it comes out of a hole, it’s so insane, yet it’s normal by human standards.
I too have this feeling to have a child… I understand…completely…
There’s nothing wrong with you. It’s a perfectly natural, biological urge that tons of people experience. I won’t lie and tell you it’s all rainbows and sunshine ~ my pregnancy was horrible. But if I could go back, I’d do it all over again. It’s hard to explain. I hope you don’t have to wait much longer. All shittiness aside, it’s still an amazing thing to go through.
Girl you know how mad my black ass gets when I think about Fox cancelling Firefly?
Like, I feel there is this alternate universe running parallel to this one where it is like, ongoing and the most popular thing on television. I wanna portal to that realm.
For real.
Firefly is like watching Star Wars if the main character was Han Solo.
I get this too. I have days when I burst out crying just watching kids in the park. And I get so full of rage at all the people who “accidentally” have kids and don’t take care of them. And I try so hard to do everything right and because of that I may never have the opportunity to have children and it seems monstrously unfair. But it’s just life. Life was not built to be fair.
Well, that was a nice emotional meltdown to have on your page. Sorry about that.
@lanney - It’s okay, we all do sometimes. I don’t know if I’ll ever have kids, but I want 2 or 3.