August 25, 2012
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It’s been a great day so far :D
Had a great morning and then I went to Target and got some things…realized I forgot to buy more hangers when I got home…so I couldn’t do my laundry. I realized that I somehow have a ton of clothes. The reason I didn’t realize how much I have is because there’s been a huge mound of clothing on the floor of my closet for forever now…and I start going through the pile, “oh, that’s where that’s been!” and I buy new clothes when there’s stuff on sale or clearance. I never buy clothing full price, ever.
ANYWAY. I cleaned my bookcase. I packed up all my books on Wicca and Paganism. There were a few journals from high school and after…and I didn’t read everything, but what I did read was overwhelming. But still, I feel proud of how far I’ve come and my outlook on life..how I’ve changed and grown as a person, the possibilities I see in myself. I also cleaned out my desk, threw a lot of shit away. Packed up my crafts in *another* tote and put it on the shelf in my closet…not that you care about the particulars…I’ll stop now and say that I cleaned and organized today, lol. I’m still not done, but I got pretty far.
It continues to be a good evening, and I’m going to take a shower then watch some more Firefly. I’ve watched three episodes…and can’t believe they canceled this show. It’s a travesty, because it’s so damn awesome!
“Proximity alert. We must be coming up on something.”
“Oh my god, what could it be? We’re all doomed! Who’s flying this thing?!? Oh right, that would be me.”And, I made a new theme, Firefly!!
Don’t you just love it?!I hope everyone is well!! ^_^
Comments (14)
Firefly is a great show. I like the new site theme, too.
It can be strange and emotional packing up and/or organizing things; I get where you’re coming from on that.
I guess you don’t have a bad self esteem. That’s good, the comment above me sort of through me off, so I forgot what I was about to say.
organizing is always fun~
@epiginoskete - Yes, it can be kind of emotional…but it’s good to cleanse.
@RulerofMasons - It’s been a lot of work, building my self esteem. It’s taken a lot of time. I still have bad days sometimes, but I know that they will pass. I hope you remember what you were going to say =]
@brokensilence04 - Haha, I do it every once in a while..but I intend to get rid of a lot more this time
Do you suffer from depression? And what happened between you and Nick?
@RulerofMasons - I used to have depression, for years. It’s been a long road to feeling better, but it got easier, especially once I realized that it’s all in my mind and I can control it. I broke up with Nick in February, after the second time he visited me.
I remember gutting out my closet so many times when I lived at home, going through all my old journals and stuff was emotional. I threw those journals away after going through them, I decided nobody should ever have the possibility of coming across those.
It’s relieving to get rid of all the accumulated junk! I was very picky with what I brought with me to my first place outside of my mum’s. In with the new, out with the old.
Congratulations! I really have no clue how bad you had it back then. What matters now is that you can start over, hopefully you can continue improving, and some day you can reach your ultimate self. I would wish this upon myself, alas, I believe I am a hopeless case. I’m not depressed, but, for some reason I just can’t lead a normal life. Well, at least you are progressing, good news is good to hear, regardless of who it happens to. I really had no clue you used to be weak. But NIck was with you during your times of depression? I guess he helped you a lot along those hard times. Perhaps you reached an awakening.
@RulerofMasons - Yes, it was really bad for a long time..a lot of bad things have happened to me. I was better when I was with Nick, but he did help me through a hard time. We were together when I got laid off and a whole bunch of other bad things happened at once. If it wasn’t for him, I probably would have suffered another bout of depression. He was there to talk to me, and it truly helped.
I don’t know if there are people that are hopeless. If they are, they put themselves there. I think of my mother as hopeless, so maybe it’s true…but she has done it to herself. But I believe that a person has control over such things, since we control our own minds. What’s holding you back? What are your goals? What do you strive for. I don’t know, maybe you haven’t figured it out yet…but when you’re working towards what you want, it’s an amazing feeling of fulfillment. For instance, I can’t wait to finish this novel I’m working on (even though I haven’t written for days..being a little lazy :O), to work on the second draft and find an agent to sell it for me. It’s amazing to know where I want to go with the story and how I’m getting there. It’s not the best right now, but it will be. So maybe work on some kind of goal for yourself, whatever that might be.
Congratulations! Perhaps your awakening has been to discover your purpose, and you are most likely using your past experiences as a way to right a novel worthy of sales. I wish I could do the same thing, I wish I had the talent to create, which is what you are doing. You may not make the same amount of money as the harry potter collection, however competitive it may be, if you are writing a novel, it must mean you have been inspired. I want you to know that no matter what happens, what you been through, your whole life experience means something, and it doesn’t have to be a novel to prove it meant something. It’s not about trying, it’s about knowing what must be done, and if things don’t work out, there is always another chance to shine.
Pretty profile pic
And yeah, I hardly ever buy clothes at normal price. I love the hunt through clearance
Glad you had such an awesome day! I love finding clothes I forgot about in the closet.
glad your day was great
I have never seen this Firefly show
Organizing the closet really make you feel better.