June 23, 2012
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The panic attacks are back. They’re so bad sometimes, and I have multiples in a day. My heart races and I can’t breathe. I have negative thoughts that repeat over and over and over again. If I had the money, I would go to the doctor and get a prescription for anti-anxiety meds. As it is, I didn’t get my birth control this month because I couldn’t afford it. I hope that one month of missing it won’t make my period go out of control. I could not handle another 14 days of heavy bleeding :/
What I’m dealing with, it’s my burden. It will forever and always be on my conscience.
I took one of the valiums last night that I had left. Now I only have 2. These panic attacks feel so out of control, and I don’t know how much more I can take. My heart is racing right now and I find it hard to breathe. Anyway, I have to get ready to leave and then drive nearly 2 hours….
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I’m sorry you’re going through this. Anxiety is so painful. When it happens just practice breathing, focus on that, and keep telling yourself it’s going to be okay. You have a supporter right here, and I pray that you are okay every time you wake up and start your day. Maybe try and borrow some money from friends or family to get the meds you need to stay all around regulated — just a thought. Blessings, and I am going to rec this so you can get more support.
Anxiety is terrible and I’m thankful I don’t have panic attacks that often. I hate that you do. It also sucks that you can’t just go to the doctor. Maybe you could look online for some at home remedies for panic attacks. I don’t know if any of the would work, but I think it would be worth a shot.
Have you thought about a mental health clinic near you? the government would pay for your meds if you can’t afford them. I have horrible anxiety problems…have been dealing with it since 2009. It’s terrifying. I understand what you’re going through. It wasn’t until this year that I was able to actually get help…so for right at 3 yrs I dealt with it totally alone. Music really helped me…but it wasn’t lasting. Look into other options…and screw what other people might think about what you have to do for your welfare. You are more important than their opinions of you!!
I’m sorry
I don’t know if this will help but there are some natural ideas I can give you.
Liquid B vits are for stress you put them under your tongue, tension tamer tea At Wally World, also an Amino acid that helps me is called SAM-e.
Now I’ve never tried the ones at Wal Mart but they are very affordable. If you have a natural store get the NOW brand its fab & can be very affordable depending on the mcg. I would say try 200 mcg 2x a day then go up till you feel the difference up tp 1600mcg .
But getting good B vits is HUGE bc without Bs we loose the coating on our nerves & we can’t assimilate our own estrogen making our periods horrible. I would say try the ones at Wal mart liquid Bs (Sublinguel) & use them every time you fell upset. Bs are water soluble making it very difficult to OD you’ll look sunburned b4 you can OD so you’ll know to reduce how much you’re using it,
Hope you feel better soon
So sorry dear. Please be careful while driving and having those attacks. I hope it gets better soon. Take care of yourself. <3
I don’t know you well but I know how you feel. If you need someone to just talk to let me know I can shoot you my number. And I’d try going to the doctor. Try the health department. They can give you something I think. They have samples and stuff. I had to go there once to get something to help me get to sleep at night.
Panic attacks suuuuuuuck. D=
@Kris0logy - I’ve tried the Tension Tamer tea and it’s pretty great. You can generally buy it at a regular supermarket. The flavor isn’t terrible, either.
hope you feel better.
I’m so sorry! *hugs*. I understand about the panic attacks. Very scary stuff and hard to deal with. I do hope you’ll be able to get some help for it!
As someone mentioned, have you tried a mental health clinic that could help you to get the meds you need. You don’t have to put up with it alone like this. So sorry for what you are going through.
@ctaretz - Thank you =]
@ItsAll_A_LoveWar - Yeah, they’re pretty awful sometimes. It seems to come in waves. There will be a time I hardly get any at all, and then all of a sudden I get them all the time :/
@Cestovatelka - Thanks dear =]
@ButYouSeeTheRealMe - I tried applying for medical assistance a month or two ago, and I found out that I would have to pay $74 a month, which I can’t afford :/
@Kris0logy - Interesting, thanks, I’ll have to see if I can find any of that =]
@Xbeautifully_broken_downX - Yeah, it sucks driving with an attack. But I made it okay =]
@tsukikko - I think the lady gave me a list of cheap clinics in the county, but I threw them away when I cleaned out my car. Maybe I’ll get another list.
@TakingxOverxMe - Yes, they do =[
@rainbowbutterflyangel - Thanks, I do…for right now.
@Megabyyte - Very hard to deal with sometimes. I don’t have many options :/
Good idea. They arent quick by any means but once they see you it will help in some way or they can at least point you in the right direction.
I’ve suffered from panic since 1976. There are coping skills available….search Google. Better days are ahead of you….don’t stop fighting!
Can you get a medical card!? Here those w/out insurance can get one and get medical help. I’ve dealt with them since my early 20′s and it takes the Correct meds…I can’t emphasize that enough.This also has affected 5 generations in my family, the same age, same circumstances and now my 27 yr old nephew and 26 yr old niece. Back in the 80′s when i was treated i got the meds that allowed me to go back to work and even made life better within a week of it being so severe i couldn’t function.
My heart is with you!
Cj
@crazy2love - YAY!
Ahhh whenever I don’t use my birth control on time, even if it’s just one month my whole system goes whack. In my city there’s a sexual health clinic where they provide you with affordable/free birth control if you’re having to choose between things like food or birth control. You should look into something like that so you can protect yourself.
Panic attacks suck, usually I can breathe and control them but when they aren’t mentally possible to control I would swear I’m crippled by them. I hope you can work something out so you don’t have to suffer.
Panic attacks are horrible. A lot of my family suffers with them, including both my mom, my sister and me. *hugs*
I know one of my friends from school started taking meditation classes to help keep control so could be something to look into, not sure if it would help too much though
Hey! I used to have panic attacks. I had about 3 to 4 a day and even in my sleep! That went on for months without me realizing that it wasn’t normal. I went to the doctor and the gave me some anti-depressents. I’m now off meds. Since then, I’ve learned how to identify my problems, recognize a solution and/or walk away, and deal with my feelings. Back then, I didn’t trust anyone, I would hide my feelings about most things and it damaged my body. I never knew that bottling things up could be harmful. Now, I’m more aware and honest with myself and others. Also, I exercise a lot to release stress and frustration. My panic attacks are gone but I will always have to cope with anxiety. Best of Luck!