March 7, 2012

  • It’s Almost My Birthday

    What are you getting me?

    Just kidding. I’m beginning to hate my birthdays, a sure sign of aging. And I am. I’ll be 26 on the 21st. 4 years away from 30. I hate creeping towards 30. It makes me feel largely unaccomplished in life. A failure. I know everyone’s like, “you’re young!!” But I’m really not. We only perceive it that way because advances in medicine help us live longer than in the past. There’s a reason we reach sexual maturity around the age of 13…because that’s when human beings started having children. Our life span didn’t used to be around 88 years old, it was about cut in half. Back in the day, I would be considered reaching old age. It’s all a matter of perception and the times.

    I feel old. So many people from my class in high school have children and are married, or just married. It’s a year and a half away from our 10 year. And there will be me, no career, no boyfriend/husband, single and sloppy. The only thing that I can hope for is to be skinnier than I was in high school.

    Speaking of that, I’ve lost 4 pounds since Monday. The work outs are tough and I can’t finish them yet. But I will, the longer I’m doing it. Instead of pushing myself so hard like I usually do, I’m going at the pace I need to. At first, eating 5 times a day was a lot. I had to force myself to eat, because I wasn’t hungry at all. I’m used to it now. I have my meals all written down on a piece of paper hanging on the fridge, and I check meals off as I eat. I have to keep on eye on the time so I can eat as evenly spaced as I can. I usually eat every 2.5-3 hours. I wouldn’t be able to follow the meal plan if I was working, because it takes 45 minutes to an hour to prepare, eat, and clean up nearly every meal..obviously it depends on what I’m making. Protein shakes are one of the easier meals, it takes about 10 minutes. So far, the chicken was the longest.

    Anyway, it’s going well, the working out and eating. I haven’t had a pop since Sunday and I have a headache, lol.

Comments (13)

  • I was 30 when I met my wife, who was 26.  Those of my nieces and nephews who are married, all had their weddings between the ages of 25-28.  Courtships and weddings tend to happen faster, when one is a bit more mature.  

  • I don’t think you’re old, honestly. And really it makes things a lot smoother to take your time to find the one you will be with and have your life in order before marriage. Just because you haven’t gotten everything settled yet doesn’t make you a failure. Most people, even those who are married with kids, are still trying to figure things out too.

  • Caffiene withdrawl blows

  • I’ll be 27 this year myself, which is dangerously close to 30.  Old people will be like “I’d die to be 30″, but that’s because it’s the lesser of 2 evils.  

    I suppose we can’t control it, so we might as well live it up.  Happy almost birthday.  

  • I really do understand how you feel. I see people who I graduated will graduation college early, having kids, getting married..ectect and here I am, still stuck living with mom and still working on my degree..with no car and no job. :(

  • Actually, you are pretty young, but even if you weren’t… you’ve probably heard the old saying that life begins at forty, and you may also have heard the somewhat newer saying that forty is the new thirty.  I didn’t really understand what either of those sayings meant until I started to reach that age, but they’re both definitely true.  (Perhaps more so for me because I have no children, but even so.)

    When you get older, you have more income and more freedom to do the things you want.  I’m unemployed now, as I mentioned before, and yet if it worse were to come to worst, I’d be able to go nearly a year without a job and without having to worry about paying for anything.  (Not that that would be preferable, of course, but I could.)  When I was in my mid to late twenties, there were often times when I didn’t have enough to eat — at my lowest points, in fact, I was eating about two or three times a week.  That’s unlikely to ever happen again.

    And healthcare is getting so good these days that, physically, forty really is getting to be a lot more like thirty used to be.  I’m 43 years old, and I have almost no health problems to speak of — some lower back trouble, some presbyopia, and a few other minor things, is all — I’ve never even been hospitalized for anything.  Even as little as fifty years ago, a typical man my age would be having all kinds of problems.

    So don’t be concerned about aging.  Maybe your boobs will be a little less firm than they are now or something, but the tradeoff is more than worth it.  You’ll see.

  • People in my family marry young and have children young; I was already considered “old” by the age of 20. D:

  • Counting down to 29… :D

    And actually? Totally chill with it. I don’t know what it is… but for whatever reason, I have just decided that I’m not only okay with hitting 30, but that I’m okay with “getting old” in general.

    My parents are pretty cool folks, and if I’m anything like them (and they don’t look too terrible at almost 60) then I think I have a lot of life left to live in me.

    It’s never TOO late to start doing ANYTHING with your life. :D Even if it’s a small start… here I am at 29, (in june) and am JUST NOW really starting to do little things to expand my writing/acting/directing/producing thing. I am still totally amatuer at it. Oh well! :D Gonna get bettter, gonna keep moving, and if it takes a few years, then whatever! :D

    The reality is… we all “COULD” be really old compared to “death” because none of us know when we’re going to die. People who die young NEVER would have guessed that they were going to die young (unless they A, committed suicide, or B, were BORN with a disease that’s killing them, or contract it early on)… so, on THAT note, I’m actually really thankful right now for every day that I’m alive that I didn’t necessarily expect to be. :D

  • Shouldn’t feel like a failure. You got accepted to that school. And in my humble opinion, as long as your making efforts to better yourself than you’re not a failure at all.

  • I’m 4 years until 30 now =(

  • When James Dean was your age, he had been dead for two years already.

  • 30 was a toughie for me. I am 37 now, 3 away from 40, and don’t mind nearly as much. Senility helps.

  • @RighteousBruin - Well, hopefully I can find someone and get married in the next few years :P

    @firetyger - Thank you for that. Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed with life, especially when something like a birthday is approaching, lol.

    @Thatslifekid - Gahh tell me about it :/

    @ItIsAllGravy - Thank you :) I would say 29 is more dangerously close to 30 than 27 ;)

    @UnconventionalButterfly - Well at least you’re getting a degree! No worries :)

    @TheSchizoidMan - Not everyone makes more money as they get older, you’re just lucky you’re smart ;) And I totally laughed out loud when I got to the boobs part of your comment :P

    @Cestovatelka - What?! 20?? omg :O

    @LKJSlain - Very wise words, my dear :)

    @SolidStateTheory - Thank you. I agree….I just get off track sometimes with my thinking.

    @Roadlesstaken - Awww *hugs*

    @dingus6 - Well that’s comforting, lol!

    @BoulderChristina - I still can’t believe you’re that old. Lies, I say!! haha!

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