February 13, 2012

• Fear and Worry

  I’m worried. As most of you (or some of you) know, I was laid off in December. Of course, I’m getting unemployment. I don’t know if I will be able to get extensions on it. At the same time I heard that we were getting laid off, I sent in an application to go to Metro State University. I was accepted in less than 24 hours, and I’m currently in my first semester there. Thankfully, my credits from when I went to school before transferred, so I don’t need to complete as many credits as I would if I was starting fresh in college.

  The Dislocated Worker Program of Minnesota may help people who were laid off pay for school. Normally, that’s just for short training programs. However, the program could pay all or most of the cost of tuition and books. I just read, though, that for “long term” training assistance, the degree needs to be earned in 2 years. I don’t even know if that would be possible.

  I don’t even know what degree I want. If I can get this approved, I will have to live on unemployment and student loans. If I can’t get this approved, I will have to find a full time job in addition to going to school. The point of me not getting a job right now is because a full time job means I no longer qualify to be in the Dislocated Worker Program. And the only reason I want to be in it is for help paying for school. The application is intense. You have to lay out the finances for your entire household, apparently, so that means I would have to work with my dad on the bills he pays and everything. Even though he has never helped financially since I’ve been out of high school. I pay him rent and I even buy my own groceries. I pay all my own bills.

  Anyway. I’ve just been really worried about this. Every week I request unemployment benefits I see my available funds dwindle, and I don’t know what to do.

  I haven’t been sleeping well at all. Last night I went to bed at 1:40am, couldn’t fall asleep until 3. I woke up 5-6 times, and woke up at 7. I was up for a couple hours and then I slept again until 11am. There are nights I wake up 10-15 times in the middle of the night. I hope this sleeplessness doesn’t effect my school work. I am on my way to a 4.0 for this semester, and I don’t want to ruin that. Ironically, the last chapter we went over in psych class was on sleeping and dreaming. Speaking of psych class, I have to read 2 chapters for class tomorrow night. Thank god this exam is a take home exam!

  • 1:19 pm
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