August 29, 2010
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When You Think You Have One More Day
I’ve never known someone who’s killed themself. Until today.
There was this really sweet, nice guy that worked where I work. He was a forklift driver, unloading trucks. He’s had a really shitty life. He’s had 3 family members die in the last 6 months. The only thing he had was his job, and his friends at work. His name was Ronnie.
Friday we had an employee appreciation BBQ, with prizes. During that BBQ, Ronnie got a phone call from the temp service. His services were no longer needed at our company. After the BBQ, we all went to the bar. Well, some of us. Ronnie and his best friend, Bruce, went, and a few other people. Ronnie looked really depressed, and in the short time I was there, he drank a lot.
Then I went down to spend time with my sisters. At about 8:30, I got a phone call from Bruce and Ronnie. They wanted me to come and get drunk with them. I told them I couldn’t, I was spending time with my sisters. I suggested next weekend we all get together. They said okay, and we hung up.
A little bit ago, I got a text from Bruce, saying that Ronnie is dead. I called Bruce, and he told me that he got a phone call from Ronnie’s brother. I don’t know how he did it. I didn’t ask. I’m in shock. I feel sadness somewhere, but it’s distant. I don’t know what to think. I wish I would have gone and drank with them. I never knew when I said goodbye to Ronnie at the bar Friday, it would be the last goodbye.
When you think you have one more day, you could be wrong.
No, I can’t sleep.
I texted Cody and told him. At first, he thought I was joking. He called Bruce to confirm. Cody texted me and said he would talk to me tomorrow, thanked me for telling him.
Comments (11)
i will never understand why people fell so bad to do this. i have worked on those that have tried so hard so that that dont die. i am sorry for you and for his family.
I am so sorry! I wish I knew what else to say…I feel so lame. But you will be in my thoughts.*HUGS*
It’s thoughts like that which always keep me from actually going through with it and ending my own life. I’d prefer not to confuse people so much.
I’m so sorry this happened, dear. Is there anything I can do for you?
It sucks that life has to be that way. So.. unexpected sometimes. Hopefully he’s in a better place and he’s happy. Btw love your posts. I come back almost everyday now to read. Haven’t had anything really to say except now. Thanks for giving me something to look forward to every day.
I am so sorry. You will be in my thoughts. *hugs*
I’ve had two neighbors kill themselves. One was a guy in his 50s and it was a shock. He was so happy and then one day…boom. The other was a 14 year old….starting 9th grade in a month. That one hurt because he was so young and the gunshot woke me up and I heard screaming from his sister who was home at the time.
That’s awful sweetie, I’m so sorry. I know we don’t really know each other that well, but if you need a listening ear, I have some pretty huge ears. Hang in there.
I am so sorry this happened and it is shocking when someone does this.
I’m sorry for you. Death is never easy, on anyone. I’m feeling that emptiness you can’t name right now, too.
My brother’s friend – I’ve known him since he was in kindergarten – was killed in a high-speed car crash on Friday. He was only 18, and had so much going for him. I can’t even cry yet. That’s the worst part, not really knowing what to do or how to feel. If you need someone to talk to, I’m here.
Wait, he faked it (regarding your pulse)?
@TheCheshireGrins - Yeah, Ronnie is still alive. I’ll write a post about it later today.