June 26, 2010

• Love the Way You Lie

  I’m melancholy. Yesterday was the worst fucking day I’ve had in a long time, and I don’t even want to talk about it, because I might cry. I cried last night.

  Love the Way You Lie by Eminem f/Rihanna is my new favorite song. I’ve listened to most of his new CD, and I like it. I also like the song with Pink, I don’t remember what it’s called. Anyway, I love the song with Rihanna so much because it reminds me of my own life. I’ve never been in such an abusive relationship, but I know how it feels to “love” the way it hurts to be hurt. Sometimes, I WANT to be in a destructive relationship. I want someone who will beat the shit out of me. My emotions have been kicked around so much anyway, what’s the difference with hitting me? Why would I want this, do you ask?

  It’s hard to explain, I suppose, but it’s a simple concept for me. All I know, is to be hurt. So sometimes, that’s all I want. I wouldn’t know how to handle it when someone treats me nice. I would push them away anyway. I would hurt myself if that person didn’t.

  I want someone to punch me. I want someone to strangle me. To kick me when I’m down.

  I’m doomed to live this life. I can accept it, right now at least.

  I don’t know. I guess I’m just too much of a broken person inside. It doesn’t matter. Nothing matters.

  Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
  Well that’s alright because I like the way it hurts

  

  • 7:31 pm
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