December 11, 2008

• Xangaland.

   Well, I’ve had this account on Xanga for over 5 years. A lot has happened in my life in those 5 years. A lot of bad, some good. I’ve had 4 total accounts here, but this is my main one.

  When I first arrived here, it was just for me. I had a couple classmates as friends, and made some new ones. Every single friend from back then except for one is no longer here. But that one friend I made saved my life more times that I can count. High school was literally a waking nightmare. I don’t want to go into too much detail, but basically my mom was doing cocaine and screwing up my life with her antics, attitudes, and craziness. I moved 6 times that year, had severe insomnia, and all kinds of things. Not good things. I became depressed and suicidal because of what my mother was putting me through.

  That one friend I made on Xanga saved my life. We started talking on AIM, and we’d talk for hours at a time. More often than not, he talked me out of doing something really stupid that couldn’t be taken back. He was my strength, my crutch, my lifeline.

  When I got out of high school, I stopped regularily updating my blog, and only wrote in it every once in a great while. Often, blogs half a year apart or more would be on the same page.

  I think that I’ve finally reached a state of mental health that’s a lot better than in those days. Of course, I still get down, but nothing compared to that year.

  And I don’t know if 5 years ago there was the sense of community and friendship that Xangans have these days with people they don’t know in “real life”. Either there wasn’t, or there was and I wasn’t paying attention. But nevertheless, I’m back to Xanga and love the sense of community and friendship here in Xangaland….even with the drama that occurs every day

   

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