October 9, 2003
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Random things on my mind:
I ended up working last night.
Anywho, I didn’t get my raise on this check either. So I’m kinda disappointed, cuz my check was shit. Miranda’s feeling a bit of the sickness. My mom tells me she’s not moving. Jo’s feelin like shit. I slept in this morning. Yesterday at work I wrote an abstract little blurb. But I don’t have it with me, so I can’t share it. I miss Chris. Even after over a year, I still do. My nails make it hard to type. I hate school. But I gotta go to college..I’m goin to St. Cloud State. I need a haircut. I’m goin into the FBI. Gonna be a “profiler”. Gonna be a rock star. Gonna be a millioniare. I’m tired again. My job sucks. I get paid shit. I wanna be at my dad’s house already. I get to work with Tabitha tonight. She came in last night, cuz it got REALLY busy. Megan couldn’t get all the tables herself, so they called in Tabitha. She said it makes her sad when I’m sad. She sang the Seseme Street song..”Sunny days..”. I wonder if she’s gonna feed her horses after work or before. I wanna go feed the ponies. I miss seeing them. I haven’t seen them in forever. The Chi, The Chu, and Jaja. In other words, Harley, Indy, and Rebel. Rebel’s so pretty. The most beautiful color for a horse! Brownish red. So gorgeous. Tabitha always tries to make me laugh because I’m always looking depressed. Dorthy, the cook, told me that she couldn’t figure me out. She said that I’m always sad, and yet I smile. I’m always looking depressed, yet I laugh. I told her I do that because I can’t stand seeing other people that way, but I can’t make myself laugh. Tabitha and my dad are the only ones who can get me out of one of my moods. Anywayz, I’m gonna go now cuz it’s raining in China. 
