May 20, 2012
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Alone
One of the worst feelings in the world is having something that you want to say or talk about, but you just can’t say the words. It makes you feel so horribly alone, when all you want to do is tell someone this awful thing. Even if you cry and can barely speak, all you want to do is show someone the pain you feel inside. But you can’t. When you open your mouth, you don’t say the things you want to say. They’re trapped inside you, these words, this awful story. Because really, what is someone supposed to say to you when you tell this story? There’s nothing anyone could say to make you feel okay. So you keep the words inside. And you keep feeling alone. And the tears silently fall, as you wonder how you’re going to sleep.
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*hugs*
I know the feeling. But at the same time, I’d rather tell someone- regardless of them not knowing what to say rather than letting the silence kill me slowly inside.
And you’re not alone. I’ve been where you are before and I got through it. You can, too.
I’m sorry if you’re feeling like this
but the good news is – you just posted on xanga. and were heard. and even got some comments from people saying “we understand”
you always have xanga
If you could get the words out to a friend and then tell them that they don’t have to say anything might help with the awkwardness. If they are a good friend, they’ll understand.
I hate it when I can’t speak because I’m crying. I feel foolish even though I know I’m not.
“but the good news is – you just posted on xanga. and were heard.”
^This. You’re not really alone, you know.
Writing it down, putting it in words is just as good as talking it out. Sometimes it’s better cuz you have the time to really say it right. “Better out than in,” as Shreck would say. Just don’t bottle it up. And remember Scarlett O’Hara= “Tomorrow is another day.”