December 19, 2011

• Chaos Theory

  My boyfriend, Nick, wanted me to write a post about something that I believe in.

  I believe that everything in the universe is connected through energy.

  Obviously, everything isn’t directly connected. It’s more of an indirect connection. So particle A is connected to particle B, which in turn is connected to particle C. Therefore, A is connected to C thru B. Particle B has a reaction to something A did, thus particle C has a reaction to B…and so on and so on. This is, in essence, a ripple effect, or the butterfly effect. However, the butterfly effect (or chaos theory) implicates that a small reaction grows as it moves through the energies. The theoretical example of the butterfly effect is that a butterfly’s fluttering wings can cause a hurricane in another part of the world.

  Now, all matter does not have energy. Energy is measured by its mass. However, as soon as there is a proper reaction around it, the matter will become energy, and have mass. Those reactions cause other reactions around them, and so on. See? The universe is indirectly connected through spiderwebs of energy.

  The reason I’m talking about this is because of how we met, and Nick wanted me to connect this belief of mine with that.

  We met online, on AIM, a few weeks ago. It was early morning of November 27th, in fact, around 2AM. We’ve called our happenstance meeting fate. You see, I normally don’t have problems falling asleep. I do have trouble sleeping, though. I wake up in the middle of the night many times, but I haven’t had trouble falling asleep for years. The night of the 26th, I went to sleep at about 10:30. Or tried to. I laid awake for a very, very long time. I was wide awake. Finally, at 12:40AM, I sat up in bed and decided that sleep was futile. It would not come. So I went on the computer. I tooled around on Xanga and Facebook for a little bit, but I was bored. I wanted to talk to someone. So I went on Vampire Freaks, a place where I knew I would talk to people.

  So I went on there for the first time in many months. I was talking to someone and they asked if we could talk on AIM. I said sure. I’ve had this computer for nearly a year, but I had never downloaded AIM. That’s how long it had been since I’ve been on there. So I was talking to this guy and all of a sudden I get a chat room invite from a totally random person I didn’t know. And in this chat room, was Nick. Nick and I ended up talking until 6:30 in the morning. He added me on FB, and that was pretty much the start of talking for hours every day.

  See what I mean about reactions? All those things had to happen in order for me to meet him. For Nick, it started when he marched in an Occupy march. He walked for many hours and his sleeping schedule got messed up. So then he went out of town to see his college football team play a game. They lost, and when he got home, he stayed up instead of sleeping because he was pissed off.

  For me, some kind of energy was keeping me awake that night. I think the energy started making its way toward me when he walked in that march. I don’t know the origins of the energy, but that’s what I think.

  So that’s that!! I love him, and I can’t wait until he visits me January 10th-16th!!! I have a countdown on my phone: 22 days!! <3

  Also, I’ve obviously unlocked this blog. I think I will start using this one again. I’m no longer worried about the bitch that was reading my shit when I locked it up, lol.

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