I'm not going to pretend I fully understood this movie. I'm not even going to claim I understand half of it. So much didn't make sense to me, and I was lost during much of it.

But some of it, I can comprehend. This movie was written and directed by Charlie Kaufman, who also did Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (a superb film). It's about a man who directs plays, and has a very turbulent personal life. He receives a grant to do a play and buys a huge warehouse in New York. He then spends 50 years of his life writing this play and having people rehearse it. But it's never performed. It never reaches the point of being finished and being performed for an audience. For 50 years, he has people performing this play. And this play, is his life. Scenes from his life. Everything that happens to him, he writes into the script.

Could you imagine, becoming so engrossed in this, that all you do is write the scenes of your life to be rehearsed by actors but never performed? The warehouse is designed as a huge set of all the places he's been. Could you imagine how sad that would be? So he has an actor that plays him in the play. Then, there's an actor to play the actor that's playing him....because the actors become a part of his life...so he has to have actors who play the actors. The dynamic and set up for this is fantastic... genius.

I still don't understand so much of it. For instance, one of the characters, Hazel, she buys a house that is constantly on fire. The house... is always on fire. But it never burns to the ground. She lives there for years and years. At an old age, she dies of smoke inhalation. I do not understand the house that is always on fire but never burns. What does that mean? (no, not double rainbow)

I wish I could watch it again, but I wanna put it in the mail tomorrow so I can get the next movie on my list.

I would seriously LOVE you forever if you did me a favor!!!

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So if you buy 2 items, the third is half price... and the item that's half price is the most expensive piece, so that's a pretty awesome deal because any other time, the half price item is the cheapest. Plus, there's a lifetime guarantee on everything. So save your receipt, and they will replace something if it breaks or let you get something of equal value if that piece is no longer sold.

So.... pleeeeaaaasee!!!!!!!

I would seriously love you forever if you buy something =]

Do you ever watch the special features of movies? Do you watch how the movie is made?

I do. I love watching how movies are made. I would love to work on movies.

I think people are too critical of actors. If you watch the special features, it's obviously really hard work making a movie. And it's not just actors delivering lines. They have to do take after take of the same scene and consistently have all the right emotions. They often work 16+ hours a day while shooting and working into the early morning hours only to go to sleep and wake up a short time later to start shooting again.

I just watched the special features of Eclipse, and it's crazy what the actors did to make this movie. There's a lot of physical action and fighting, plus they did A LOT of running. Have you ever seen how they made the Lord of the Rings trilogy? They spent 2 years creating a place that's in the movie for 45 minutes. I think it would be awesome to be a part of making something so epic. I would love to be in that industry, having a hand in creating movies. There's so much more that goes into a movie than just actors acting, and it would be wonderful to be a part of that.

Some people don’t know when they are going to die. They die in accidents and of heart attacks. Some people know the relative time they are going to die. They are sick with cancer and other diseases. No one knows exactly when they are going to die. Except for me. I know. I’ve known for years, and I know exactly when it’s going to be.
I’m going to die today.
What does one do on the last day of their life? I’ve only had loose plans because life tends to throw a wrench in things. Is the only way to have a set plan to turn of all forms of communication and spend the time alone? I think not. I will spend the time with the people I love. I will laugh and I will giggle.
It’s been hard, sometimes, knowing when I’m going to die. I wonder, what’s the point of trying to do anything, when I’m going to die young? Yet, here I am, in college and living life, even though I’m going to die today.

*****

That's the start of a novel. Very intriguing, yes?

Since I've gotten addicted to Guitar Hero, one of the songs I've never heard before has become my favorite song: Lasso, by Phoenix. I got 100% on this song, too =]

I just watched Remember Me. I hated the ending. I cried.

Sometimes, life is too short to be bitter and sad. Sometimes, you don't have any more moments. Sometimes, we all just need to let go.

The people that I work with think that you can't have a best friend or a boyfriend/girlfriend online, that you've never met.

I know that most Xangans feel differently, because there's been people who meet here, meet IRL, and get married, or become best friends. So I was talking to Cody and I said, "A friend is someone who you ask more than how their weekend was." And Cody says, "So you have a lot of friends here at work." I said, "Not really, because I just like to babble." What I meant by this conversation is that a friend is someone who you have deeper conversations with, someone that you actually talk to, and not small talk.

A while back, a whole bunch of us used to hang out outside of work. I guess they still do... just minus me. I'm sorry, I guess I blurred the lines with being coworkers and being friends, because it kind of seemed like we were friends.

I have no friends where I live. I graduated high school over 100 miles away, then moved right after graduating. So the only friends I've had here are friends I've made at work. And then, I guess they aren't really friends. I've always feared being the one that everyone talks about behind your back. You think everyone likes you, but it's false. You think they piss me off to get me riled up, then laugh at me behind my back? Yes, I think so.

No, Cody, we're not friends.

We're not anything.

My online friends are better friends than any of them will ever be.

(In reference to Dan's post.)

Thin

Thin but toned

Average

Muscular

Thick

Chubby

Obese

I have to add:

Curvy

Malnourished

Do you think this woman is overweight?

In my opinion, no, she's not. She looks decently proportioned to me. She doesn't look fat. She probably could lose some weight, but not too much.

Like I commented on Dan's post, I think that the BMI charts are a crock of shit. Like me... yes, I am overweight... I could probably lose like 20 pounds or so... but the scale says that I am about 200. But my legs are built like a brick shit house, and I have a lot of muscle in my legs. The only part of my legs that aren't all muscle are my inner thighs. My arms are also very muscular. I've worked in a warehouse for 6 1/2 years... I can lift 100 pounds from the floor. So my weight in relation to my height is not accurate for the BMI charts. I have too much muscle. Shit son, my calves are 18" around, ALL MUSCLE!!!

Anyway. That's my peace, yo.