This doesn't make any sense...

I don't understand how they can say that this recession is over. The housing market, the KABOOM of this mess, continues to fail and get worse. People are still on tight budgets, and people still have shitty credit. People are still having problems paying their bills. Soooo, how is the economy getting better? Is it the stock market? Is that what determines everything? What the stock market is doing? I honestly don't know what the stock market has been doing lately. But that doesn't have anything to do with the bottom line RIGHT NOW.

Whatever. They're all liars.

Also, the thing I've noticed, is that a lot of these families going on the news about their financial issues, a lot of them have a shit ton of kids. "We'll make it work" only works when you have 1 or 2 "oops" babies. Not 4 or 5 or 6 kids. If you're going to have that many kids, you better make sure you can care for them on your own, instead of making me and the rest of the tax payers pay for your shit. I know you love your spouse, but STOP HAVING KIDS IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD IT ON YOUR OWN.

I was just reading an article on Yahoo, and almost everyone they interviewed on food stamps had more than 4 kids. Fuck that. That shit is ridiculous.

Happy Birthday Courtney. I love you =] I know this is a day late, but Xanga has been acting up, so I couldn't upload the pictures!!

You know the funny thing? I saw more birthday cupcakes than birthday cakes. ooooo, I want Courtney's cupcakes!!!!

Sometimes I get in these moods where I laugh hysterically for no reason. Or, stupid things make me laugh really hard.

Today, was one of those days.

Not so good if I'm still a little sick. My throat hurts =[

Why are my eyeballs so dry today?

Unrelated, I am like a tiger.

It's also my Chinese zodiac. I wonder if the tiger is my power animal. Hmmmmmm.

I am 26 songs away from 3,000 in my iTunes.

I borrowed the first couple seasons of Lost from my mom. I wonder if I should start watching it tonight.

Leftover Chinese for dinner. Maybe a cookie. I kind of want some ice cream.

Maybe I should work on my cross stitch of a tiger. Well, I have 2..one I haven't started yet.

Sorry, this post is just totally random.

I just learned about this tshirt business today. Are you fucking kidding me? That's ridiculous. I am so happy I do not rot my brain with this show:

to me.

I've had it almost a week now, and I haven't gotten any new people reading my blog really. What the eff. Now I'm out 2,000 credits that could have went towards premium. What a waste!!

Anyways, I don't understand why people think I'm funny. People tell me that all the time. "Oh, Crystal, you are so funny." Or they tell me I'm awesome. Well, yeah, I am awesome, but I don't understand the whole funny thing. Is it the things I say? Is it how I say them? My facial expressions? A combination of all of the above? I DON'T GET IT!!!!

I only say this because my mom told me today that I'm funny, and that I have interesting thoughts. I don't know what that means. We were talking about religion at the time. Hmm. Maybe someday soon I shall post my further thoughts on religion and what I think about it all. Cody and I share the same views... which I find interesting because I don't think many people feel the same way about it.

I wanted to tell a funny story, but I feel nervous when people put me on the spot. Oh well. Enjoy some head shot.

I LOVE YOU XANGA.

That is all.

I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I FUCKING HATE HER.

Could I get any more clear?

I hate her.

My youngest sister. The purest of them all. The one who hated smoking and drinking. Who hated drugs. WHO IS 15.

The one who always said she would never do any of that shit.

Now she bent to my mother. She drinks. AND IS A POT HEAD NOW?!

Do I blame my mother? Or my sister for bending?

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW.

I could cry.

...my life of crap I don't need. No, I am not a hoarder, I just have a lot of things. I've started with my video games. I love video games, don't get me wrong. But there are games that I've played no more than an hour, or never played at all. I've found 19 games that I can get rid of. These are games that I know I will never play. All of them but 1 are PS2 games, and I haven't had that system hooked up since February... do you really think I'm going to play these games?? No. I'm not. So I don't feel bad getting rid of them at all. These games are going to the pawn shop. (Also, I can get rid of a guidebook along with one of the games)

Next, I think I will tackle my clothes. I have clothes I haven't worn in years on the bottom of my closet floor, hanging up, in bins... yep. So those clothes will go to a used clothes store...whatever they don't take can go to a Goodwill. Perhaps that will be a project for next weekend.

It's not spring cleaning, it's fall cleaning. I will feel so much better after getting rid of this crap.

Also, I am one step closer to self-publishing a book of poetry and prose! Yay!!

So I've gotta get dressed and head to the pawn shop....

EDIT:

So for 18 games (Madden 06 was too old) and the guidebook I got $45. More than I thought I would get! So I went to the mall and went to Bath and Body Works. I shop for lotions about twice a year, when the sales and clearance is really good. Last year, I bought a lot more than normal and I JUST started running out. I'm one of those people who can't have dry hands..it's like seriously an OCD thing. If my hands are dry, I start freaking out and get very anxious. Anyway, they've got a lot of new scents since the last time I was there!!

I bought Dark Kiss (OMG delishisness!!) and they have a new scent that comes out Nov. 1st, but they had a sample bottle for $1: Secret Wonderland. This smells good too. They had other new ones, but I didn't wanna spend all my money so all I bought was the Dark Kiss and 2 samples bottles of Secret Wonderland. On the back of the Wonderland there are coupons for a free signature item with the purchase of a Secret Wonderland item. I love coupons, they are so wonderful!

Also, in my email, I noticed that B&BW is starting to hire for the Holiday season. I was thinking of applying to work during the season... make some extra money to pay down my debts and extra cash for Christmas shopping money. The thing is... 6 years ago I washed my social security card and it didn't fare well... it was fucked. So can I just use my birth certificate when I apply for a job??? I don't know!!

To everyone who doesn't fit in the little mold that society has built for you, I love you and I appreciate you as you are.

I've been in and out of delirium most of the evening and night, sleeping fitfully as my fever tries to break. My head is pounding and dizzy. I've had weird dreams and thoughts, but this has been number one on my mind all night long. The people who don't "fit in." Not only kids, but the people. Everyone. I truly do love you all. My heart goes out to you if you've been broken because of who you are.

I'm calling in to work today. Hopefully this night was the worst and I start feeling better today. After I get done writing this, I will call the call-in line, then take another dose of Nyquil.... I'm pretty sure I can. I can take a dose every 4 hours, and the last time was last night sometime. But first I have to drink a bottle of water, because I'm pretty sure I'm dehydrated.

I still haven't watched Iron Man 2... hopefully I feel well enough to watch it tomorrow (today). Also, I was thinking of spending all my free time reading Xanga, because I've missed all of you... that is, if I can keep my head from falling off.

Edit:

My fever broke!! I'm feeling better. Watching Iron Man 2... good so far. I'll be back later and chill with ya'll.