I've posted about this before, but I feel like I need to do it again.

Writing posts that attack other bloggers is unnecessary, and completely uncalled for. I just read Dave's post about the whole SassWithClass drama, and it made me feel like I should bring this up again.

Listen, just because we're communicating through the internet, and not IRL, doesn't mean anything. For those of you who think this, you are shallow, and you obviously don't put too much stock into ANY relationship. Honestly, have you ever been to another website where strangers are such a community? Xanga is so unique and special, and we grow genuine relationships and friendships here. Some of us talk to each other every single day. How can you NOT think that that isn't special? How can you just throw that aside like it means nothing? Because it DOES mean something, to a lot of people. This isn't "just the internet" for a lot of people.

With that in mind, it's NOT okay for us to launch such attacks on each other. People's feelings DO get hurt, and people DO get upset. It's pretty obvious that Dave is upset about this whole thing. I don't know all the details about it, but there are people involved that really are hurt.

In my opinion, attacking others isn't okay anyway. Even less so when so many here are close. Even if it's not an attack, airing your dirty laundry with another blogger isn't okay either. Things like that belong in private messages, not public blogs for all to see.

I understand that many eat the drama up and they secretly love it, but not me. I think it's ridiculous.

I know people are going to comment this post with things like "Edit your friend's list if it bothers you that much." Well, I shouldn't have to do that. See, I genuinely like everyone on my friend's list...otherwise I wouldn't be your friend! I WON'T edit my friend's list, because besides the stupid drama, I love reading all the OTHER posts. Everyone here is different, and I care for and love all my Xanga friends for different reasons.

I think Xanga has been too drama-filled lately, and it's really sad. It makes us veterans want to leave because the newer wave of xanga seems too be too much about drama. Those of us who have been here for 5+ years ARE leaving, or HAVE left. I don't think it should have to be that way.

The next time you want to attack a fellow blogger, I think you should think about the consequences.

The people I work with, let me tell ya!! They were relentless today.

Because of my sensitivity to light because of my Lasik, I had to wear dark safety glasses instead of normal ones.

Let's see.

I got called Ray Charles. Stevie Wonder. I was asked if I needed a cane. I was asked how long I've been playing piano. I was played songs by Ray Charles and Stevie Wonder. I was played songs by Blind Melon. I was played songs like the Future's So Bright I Gotta Wear Shades. Songs like "I can see clearly now/the rain is gone." I was asked to look for parts that had the description of "eye." ALL. Fucking. DAY.

At the end of the day, one of the guys says, "Who's going to drive Crystal home? I don't think she should be driving in her condition."

The most common phrase out of my mouth today?

"You guys are fucking dicks."

And,

"You guys are assholes."

I also called them motherfuckers several times.

Well, at least I smiled and laughed about it.

I have a good sense of humor too.

I would like a Xanga boyfriend or girlfriend. Someone who will playfully banter with me and to flirt with. Someone I can talk to about anything. Maybe I just need a boyfriend or girlfriend PERIOD. Maybe I should join one of those dating sites? I've never done that before.... I wonder if it's worth it. Like is everyone there just looking for people to hook up with? That's not what I want. I want a relationship. GRR, it's so frustrating being single.

I had lasik yesterday, it was quite the experience.

My appointment was at 9:30, and my dad drove me. I finished filling out the paperwork for the procedure and also for the financing. Which, cost $3,998.30 at Lasik Plus. I got financed for the entire operation through their financing, CareCredit. Up to 2 years interest free. You could go up to 5 years for a low interest rate, but I don't want to spend that much time paying this off.

Anyway, after that, they take me back and explain all the aftercare. 1 drop in each eye 4 times daily of an antibiotic eye drop and some other eye drop, I forgot what it's for. Also, some drops in each eye 4 or 5 times a day to lubricate. I had to wear some goggles for the first day, and every night when I sleep to prevent rubbing my eyes. I was then offered a valium to help me relax during the procedure, which I said YES!! I was very anxious about this whole thing, a laser at my eyeballs and all.

Then my mother and sister arrived. After a few minutes, they took me in and put some drops in to numb my eyeballs. Then the surgeon came in and explained the entire procedure. They then led me into the operating room, which was quite dark. My family was able to watch because the one wall was made of glass, and they had a monitor that had a close up of my eyes.

First they put more numbing drops in my eyes then laid my down at this machine. First they put this suction thing on my eye, then moved the table over to a spot where a laser cut the flap. Some places still use a blade, but more and more places are using a laser to cut the flap. Then they removed the suction. It's weird, because it's like you're going blind. Even though your eyes are open, you can't see for the short amount of time they have the suction on your eye.

Then I got up and moved to the laser that re-shapes your cornea. They pulled the flap back and I had to star at a blinking green light. It was disorienting because the red light that was the laser was bigger and it was hard to see the green light. The doctor held my head so I didn't move, and the laser started. There was like a burning smell, but the doctor said nothing was actually burning. They replaced the flaps, then it was over.

I could see better right away, but it was foggy. Let me tell you, if I wouldn't have had that valium, I would have been freaking out!!! But I handled it very well, and that really helped. Then the doctor made sure the flaps were correctly positioned and gave me a pair of sunglasses. My eyes will be sensitive to the light for a while.

My eyes burned like a bastard afterwards. We went back to my house, my mother and sister included, where I just laid on the couch and had my eyes closed. I took a couple of Tylenol PMs and everyone else played on the Wii. My eyes hurt very badly. After a while, everyone wanted to go eat because they were hungry, so I put my sunglasses back on and we went to eat. I had my eyes closed almost the whole time, and eating was difficult.

When we got back home, the Tylenol PMs finally kicked in and I slept for hours. My eyes felt better when I woke up, and the burning was gone. I watched my dad and sister play Wii for the rest of the evening. It was very entertaining to watch them figure out how to play the New Super Mario Bros. How the game works is similar to the original on the Nintendo, or Super Mario Bros 3 on Super Nintendo, so I told them a lot of things.

Anyway, after waking up this morning, my eyes are better and I can see clearer than yesterday. It will take a while to see how much my vision is corrected, because it will continue to improve while my eyes are healing. It's strange how things are now. I feel like things are so much bigger than I thought they were. Maybe my glasses reverse-magnified things to make them seem smaller or something. It's also strange not having to wear glasses to see. I like it though!

I can't keep my eyes on the computer or TV for extended periods of time, so I will be in and out of Xanga today, I hope to see you around =]