For some reason, I was just thinking about this.

A few years ago, I went to a sex toy party with a friend of mine. She's been pretty sheltered her whole life, her mom is one of those bible-banging crazy about the religion Christians.

So anyway, after everyone else left, my friend and I were sleeping over at the person's house, and the hostess of the party and the owner of the house put in porn, and the 4 of us watched porn together. My friend thought this was weird and awkward.

I didn't really care.

I was wondering if you've ever watched porn with friends. Do you think it's weird, or do you think it's kind of a normal thing?

I haven't been eating like I should, and people have taken notice. I eat at lunch only half the time, I almost never eat breakfast, and I haven't been eating dinner. Cody bought a bowl of cheese cubes and grapes at lunch today, and he didn't eat it all. I had 2 pieces of pizza. He gave me the cheese and the 3 grapes that were left. When we got back to our desks from lunch, he told me to eat the cheese. I said that I already ate. He said he didn't care, eat the cheese. I asked him why he's trying to make me fat. He told me not to worry about that.

I've lost somewhere between 20-22 pounds.

Write me something that moves me. Something heartbreaking. Write me a story, and turn these pages into a mystical playground. Write me something that makes me cry. Twist your beautiful words into something astounding. Crack open my soul and let it bleed onto these words. Let your spirit speak to me through them. Let it pour down like rain, let it split the sky like lightning, let it rock my being like thunder.

Write me your world.

That's a song by System of a Down, by the way.

So, apparently some bad cocaine is making people sick in the cities. LINK

Umm. If you're a coke head, aren't you already sick?

That's what you get for doing that shit, yah?

(imasilentheart)

Amber's awesome.

That's all.

The other day, I posted my story on cutting, and got a lot of really nice comments, and read some of your stories. I will get to responding to them....

But when I post something deeply personal, it seems like my friends on Xanga haul out the support wagon and offer very kind words of encouragement and share their own stories. I feel a great level of comfort, knowing that there are people out there willing to take the time out of their day to read what I have to say and comment. I feel blessed that there are so many wonderful people out there that understand me and what I've gone through.

I was wondering if you feel the same comfort. If you post something more personal than normal, one of your dark secrets, and you get overwhelming response, does it make you feel the same way I feel?