Today was the day from hell. First of all, it was just crazy I WAS in a good mood, until I got to work and saw how slammed we were. UGH. 2 people called in. Let me tell ya, we are not properly staffed for ANYONE to call in. Just one person hurts us.

Okay, so I’m a lead over a certain area. This area was responsible for MANY mistakes when I started the position a year and a half ago. There was one month where there was 333 mistakes. Through my very hard work over the last year and a half, I have gotten that number down dramatically, to about 30-40 mistakes, if that. When I applied for the position, everyone told me it was not a wise move, because the last 3 people in this position did not last long…but really, they got fired for doing stupid things, so I felt comfortable applying.

Sooo, when I came in today and learned that there was about 10 or more mistakes from the night before, I WAS NOT HAPPY. Not at all. So I had a bitch session, where I specifically told them NOT to do this particular thing. I said it about 10 times. So half an hour later, guess what I see? That’s right, one of my employees doing exactly what I told them NOT to do. He got written up for it. What I really wanted to do with these people was grab them by the throat and body slam them against the damn wall.

Of course, I did not do this, for the simple fact that I do not want to get fired. HE’S the one that will be getting fired anyway, for attendance. I was pretty much pissed all day. And lemme tell ya, when you have to work 11 hours, that is a LONG time to be pissed. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

And I’m counting down the days…I have FIVE more working days, then I start my new position full time. So I will go from having idiots working FOR me, to working WITH idiots. Not really. The people I will be working with are pretty smart. =]

Sooo, I was getting ready for work this morning and saw what had been Dan’s latest post, about him dying. I was SURE he was laughing his ass off at the people that a) thought he was a sick jerk for what he did and b)people believing that he was really dead. But I had to leave for work, so I had no time for shenanigans.

Whilst driving to work, I started a little Ode to Dan. Here it goes:

Don’t be too mad at Dan,
He’s just a really sick man.

And, that’s all the further I got, because when I got to work, it was chaos here, and I had to throw my brain into my job. I don’t know if I’ll ever finish my Ode to Dan.

Really, I’m starting to think his antics are as funny as he thinks they are, because everytime he posts something controversial, people say the same thing: “Dan, you’ve gone too far” or “Dan, this is over the top, even for you.” The thing is, I’m starting to think there IS no over the top for Dan.

I also think it’s amusing that there are still people out there who don’t know who Dan is. As much as I love Dan, he’s just a man, and while people may think he’s overrated, he’s a nice guy….even though he starts many controversies.

Anyway, it’s about time for me to get back to work, but I’ll try and comment on a few before I throw my brain again…it’s so hectic around here these days…

 

I’ve been on the internet for too long…but I will say I read almost all of the comments on Dan’s post, and get the gist of what happened. Anyway, I have some reprimands to give to some employees, chao.

Oh yeah, and even though it wasn’t the best way to announce you don’t believe a post, well, whatever I suppose. I really have to throw my brain back now…don’t want to get fired for being on the internet too long…

Bwahahaha. Be proud to be a fat bastard, lmao.

Since the last post was serious, here’s a funny one. It makes me laugh EVERY time I watch it!!!!

My purpose with this post is to open peoples’ eyes. To make you feel. I want to rip your heart out of your chest. As a warning, these photos get disturbing and gruesome.

What do you think when you see emptiness? Do you feel empty? Or do you feel peaceful solitude?

What do you think when you see people of different faiths? Do you try and convert them to yours? Or do you respect everyone’s way of doing things?

What do you think when you see homeless people? Do you think they are lazy scum? Or do you feel bad for their situation?

What do you think when you see an alcoholic? Do you sneer at their inability to stay away? Or do you feel bad that they have something wrong with them that they feel the need to drink away their problems? Do you understand?

What do you think when you see an obese person? Do you feel disgusted? Or do you feel compassion for their struggles?

What do you think when you see people who starve themselves? Do you rush to judge? Or do you feel sad that people have this disease?

What do you think when you see a story about a suicide? Do you think they took a selfish, cowardly way out? Or do you feel for what the family is going through?

What do you think when you see someone obviously in pain? Do you avert your eyes? Or do you reach out in some way?

What do you think when you see a gay couple? Do you feel disgusted? Or do you feel it’s beautiful to express love?

What do you think when you see someone who cuts themselves? Do you think it’s for attention and childish? Or do you think it’s awful for someone to go to such lengths to feel or not to feel?

What do you think when you see me? (This question is meant to be rhetorical, sorry about that)

This subject is being brought up because of one of the featured posts about stores carrying plus size clothing.

I am overweight. I may even be obese, I don’t know. The fact of the matter is, how much I weigh is kind of irrelevant. I have A LOT of muscle. I think muscle mass weighs 3x more than fat mass. With my arms, I can lift about 80 pounds (which is pretty good for a female). My legs are huge, and they are not all fat. My legs are mostly muscle. My calves are HUGE. I have jock legs.

Anyway.

Most of you know about my childhood. When I was a child, I was molested for a period of time. As I got older, I let myself gain more weight than was healthy. I’ve recently discovered the reason for this. It’s going to sound psychotic, but it’s true: I don’t want to be raped/molested again. I don’t want to be attractive. I do not want to be the victim. Men don’t rape fat women… do they?

I will never be a size zero. My hip bones are too wide for that anyway.

The reason I’m bringing this up is because shopping for clothes is awful. I can buy regular jeans. I normally wear a size 13 in juniors, depending on the brand. But shirts….ugh shirts. I have big boobs. Trying to find a shirt that fits these 40D monsters is exhausting. Plus…yeah my stomach is not skinny minny. Mostly the problem is my boobs though. I can’t buy shirts that are designed so you can see where you’re boobs are supposed to go. Even trying on a XL or XXL….everything is distorted because of my boobs…even in a “normal” shirt. IT IS A FUCKING CURSE HAVING BIG BOOBS. Don’t even get me started on bras…HA! Kohl’s discriminates against people who have boobs bigger than 38D. Try finding an INEXPENSIVE cute bra that’s size 40D :/

Anyway. I end up leaving the store depressed and frustrated to tears.

So. I’ve been starting to lose weight. I’ve stopped eating out all the time. I’m lucky if I eat out once a week, versus almost every day. I’m eating LESS. Meaning portions and the number of times I open the fridge in a day. I’ve cut down on the amount of pop I drink. I HATE exercising, but I started playing DDR today. I was there for about an hour. Now I just need to start eating healthier foods.

Maybe I’m somehow getting over my paralyzing fear of being raped.

Will my boobs get smaller if I lose weight??? I was thinking about a breast reduction anyway… when I can afford it.

The areas I want to lose weight: my face/neck, under arms, stomach, and inner thighs. Oh. And BOOBS.

So last night I started talking to one of my employees. He’s an older man, in his late 50′s. He was talking about at the end of the night, he moves away from the crowd to unwind. I can’t remember what he said, but I said, “Why? Do you see me being old with a lot of cats?” and laughed.

He said, “No, I see you very wealthy. I see you doing very well in life.” I asked him why he thought that, and he replied, “Because you are a natural leader.”

That is the nicest compliment I have ever received. He is not the kind of guy that just says things and he isn’t the creepy old guy. He’s very real, and means what he says. He then went on to tell me a very funny story about what he saw at the bar the other night.

Anyway, what I’m saying is that I’m glad people have confidence in me like that. It makes me feel good.

I just read this article and it really makes me mad.

Basically it’s article about people stealing from stores, and the thefts are on the rise.

The reason this makes me so mad is because this thievery drives prices up for the rest of us consumers who DO NOT steal. Just over $6 billion a year has been stolen for the last 6 years. Just imagine if that amount was drastically lower, how cheaper prices would be on the things we buy.

I think stealing is an atrocious way to behave. In the article, it talks about people stealing big screen TVs!!!

One of my sisters has stolen things from stores all the time, and it pisses me off. What pisses me off more is that my youngest sister decided to try it when I was with her, and she got caught. I was very disappointed. Later she said “Rachel makes it look so easy.” I didn’t talk to Rachel for a long time because she’s a bad influence on our innocent younger sister. Thankfully, my youngest sister says she’s learned her lesson, and doesn’t try to steal anymore.

Anyway, just my 2 cents.

Correction:

Sorry, I mis-read….It was over $36 billion last year. In 2007, it was $34 billion. I’ve also seen $46 billion per year, and up to $115 billion per year…but I think that number is world-wide. That’s a lot of money, folks. These companies have to eat these losses, therefore, the products we buy are much more expensive than they need to be.

It isn’t just when the economy is down, obviously. It was at $34 billion in 2007 when the economy was better than last year…there was “only” a $2 billion increase. I wonder how many billions of dollars were lost THIS year.

As if you didn’t know where I was going with this, THANK GOD IT’S FUCKIN FRIDAY. That’s what I say.

It’s been a loooong week at work man. I’ve already worked over 40 hours this week. By the end of the day today, I will be over 50 hours. And let me tell you just one of the reasons I hate my current boss…..

We have these overhead heaters in the warehouse. One of them was on above a door that goes outside. I was hearing this weird whump whump noise. I said, “What the hell is that noise?” My boss says “Oh they’re just chopping ice.”

So for some reason I look up at the ceiling and happen to see a FIREBALL explode from the heater!!! Then after a couple seconds, another fireball came out! I had to yell his name because he’s frickin deaf, and I point to it and say, “Look!”

THAT’S where the whump noises where originating from! So he says, “Yeah, it’s just extra fuel,” like it’s nothing to worry about! He could have been talking about the weather. So, obviously, it turns out that they were NOT chopping ice. And don’t you think fireballs could be a little dangerous?? Like starting the place on fire?! UGGGHHHHH.

Then, a little later he asked me me to jump on a forklift and take some totes down from the rack. So I said “ugh now I have go get my badge…” because my forklift key is on my time clock badge ring. He says “Why don’t you have your badge on you? Hmmm? Crystaaaaaal.” Listen, man, don’t chastise me like I’m a fucking 5 year old, k? He can stick it where the sun don’t shine, the douchebag.

So anyway, thankfully he’s not my boss for much longer because I want to punch him in the face. :/

So, work is crazy right now. We are short handed…someone walked off the job last night. I worked almost 12 hours. Soooo, I’m going to be working 10-12 hour days from now until the day before Christmas Eve…so that leaves little time for blogging =[ I’ll do what I can, but I’ll be missing more posts from people than normal….but I’ll do what I can. I always feel terrible when that happens because then I end losing a crap load of friends…. UGH!!

Anyway, it’s been a while since I’ve done a photoblog (not really, but that’s okay), so this one is inspired by the holidays. All photos were found DeviantArt.