UGH. So I've pretty much been without the internet ALL weekend. I'm at my mom's, and I don't know if it's her computer full of viruses or something, or if the internet connection is super slow...but this is driving me absolutely crazy. I feel like I'm losing my sanity, sitting here and waiting a whole minute before the page loads!! I am seriously hoping that when I move in and set up my wireless that the slowness is my mother's computer and not a slow internet connection...I might die.

Anyway, needless to say, I have to wait until I get home tomorrow to read weekend blogs and comments...gah this sucks.

I just read an article on cnn.com about a blogger who was fired from her job because she revealed her idenity in her blog.

I don't know much about these kinds of laws about firing people except for the obvious ones, but is it really legal to fire someone because of the content of their blog? I know potential employers look at your internet persona sometimes, but I didn't think it was legal to fire someone for their blogging persona. When I read the article, it seemed like she didn't even do that much wrong, except for criticizing her mayor.

I don't know, it just seems wrong to me. I feel like what we can say as bloggers is shrinking into nothing, because it seems like the consequences for such minor offenses are too major.

Okay, so I've never used a User Tag. I feel like I'm not privileged enough to tag fellow Xangans in my posts. Well, let's get one thing out of the way as well: I don't think I've ever written a post that would even require a user tag!

That being said, I don't go around saying things like "Yeah, me 'n Theologian talked the other day about such-n-such"; or insert Simbathe2nd, or MyxlDove. I'm not even in the same league as them!

Really, I'm just a small-time blogger, barely on the radar! (and that's okay with me!) Sure, yesterday I had a hit with one post, but that was my first time ever on Top Blogs. And, honestly, it got me all kinds of excited.

Anyway, I don't think I'll ever put Fairywife in a user tag, nor Paul_Partisan, TheBigShowAtUD (even though he says he doesn't know everything, I think he's a genius. Maybe.), or bluedreamer85.

Look, I'm not a name-dropper, people! I don't go around talking about vandave!

I feel like I couldn't even mention iStephanieMarie! I just sent her a friend request, and she JUST accepted it earlier today.

There's so many others I could mention...like trunthepaige, repressedwriter, or one_eared_batman...the list goes on....

As far as user tags go, sure, I've been tagged from time to time...but really, I've never used them. Will I ever? I don't know.

Sort of on the same subject, I have once again been thinking about Xangalebrity Status. Look, I'm no where near being one of these high-profile Xangans, but I've thought about becoming one once in a blue moon. BUT....since yesterdays post launched me on the front page under Top Blogs, I have thought, maybe I don't want to be a Xangalebrity.

You get more haters, more (completely unwanted) spammers (maybe), and more trolls. Plus, it's hard even becoming a Xangalebrity! Well, I suppose I have a question...or two. Where's the line between Xangalebrity Status and NON-Xangalebrity Status anyway? How do you know? Do you guys user tag each other all the time? Does anyone ever even use user tags? OMG I DON'T KNOW!!

Well, I suppose that's all I have. By the time my post is off the page, I'll be another regular Xangan...if I'm not already....and that's okay.

By the way, thanks to everyone who rec'd my post yesterday, I really appreciate it! And I'm at work and super busy (other than writing this post!) so I'll try and read everyone's posts later... =]

(ps- Please don't be mad at me for the user tags...it would ruin my somewhat sarcastic nature =])

Edit:

I found a news article regarding the case. Apparently the model is suing the blogger because the blogger has called her derogatory terms, such as 'skank'. Really, now? Sure, it's not the nicest name to call someone, but people have been calling others this name for a long, long time. Plus, just think...now people could be sued for calling anyone any negative name. I think her argument is weak... But, she did win the case against Google for them to release the identity of the blogger...

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As a blogger, I am concerned. A super model sued Google to find out a blogger's identity, so she could sue the blogger for potential defamation. She won the case against Google, so Google has to provide the blogger's name. I just saw it on Fox News, but I couldn't find an article on the net...

If a blogger can't state their opinion on celebrities in the spotlight, where's the free speech? If paparazzi can take unwanted photos and the tabloids can PUBLISH lies about them, why can't a blogger write what they want? Why can't we write that we think so-and-so is a slut or a ho? But a tabloid can print garbage stories that most people realize are false but some people believe? This isn't about potential defamation. If these other things can happen that are perfectly legal, why can't we write what we want? This has everything to do with free speech. Why isn't this model going after tabloids? Why is she attacking bloggers?

If this case wins, it sets a precedent for every blogger out there. We will no longer be able to write about what we want in our blogs. What's next? Are we going to be like Cuba and we won't be able to talk about the president in a negative way? What is going on in this country. I will be furious if this case wins.

What do you think?

So here's what's going on lately with me...

My friend's meth addict boyfriend stole my car, almost got it impounded. I almost had to get whiskey plates on my car because he drove it high. I learned that one of my best friends and room mate is also now a meth addict. She's neglecting her kids and animals and bills. She's not even looking for a job.

I hate my boss. He's so negative and complains and bitches about everything. I don't want to hear it. When I try to tell him something, he doesn't even listen.

UGHHHHH.

I was finally getting to a place I've never been in in my life: of being content with my life. I was okay with everything until a few months ago, and absolutely everything went to shit. What the hell man, what the hell.

I have other things I want to talk about, but they deserve their own posts...and hopefully I can get one of those up tonight.

I can't believe that ASM has gone downhill on Xanga in the time I was absent for awhile... She barely updates once a week, and I saw 6 comments and only 8 eprops on one of her posts. That's just sad! Is her website working out for her or what? Hrm. I guess no matter how controversial she was, I enjoyed reading her posts. And I guess that's all I have.

Hahahaha

It's back. I can feel it.

That downward spiral into darkness; that sense that tells you you're not okay; that all-encompasing void of nothingness.

It's back.

Sure, recent events were a catalyst for my dark depression to return. Maybe I should have expected it. It's been a long time coming.

You see, every once in awhile I go through a very bad depression. I can't even remember how long ago that this happened. It lasts for a long time...months. I know it's starting again because my smile doesn't reach my eyes. My laugh doesn't reach my stomach. It becomes hard for me to hide it. I usually start cutting again. In the past, it's been so bad that I thought about institutionalizing myself. A part of me knows that my attitude and behaviors are destructive, but I do it anyway because the blackness swallows almost everything that I am. This depression hurts. I lose interest in everything and all I do is sit in my room and stare at the wall. Sometimes I listen to music but I don't ever really hear it. A part of me just wants to die, but I'll never do it.

I thought I was doing so well. I can feel the darkness settling in on me. I'll be shrouded in black. I don't know why this happens to me. I don't understand it. I wish it wasn't.

I really hate this.

.when Saturday morning cartoons were good
.when you rode your bike everywhere with your friends
.of pogs
.beanie babies
.when summers were free for the imagination and they sky was the limit
.swimming was a daily activity in the summer
.of innocent first kisses
.of trampolines
.when all you had to do for money was ask your parents
.of no worries
.of tire swings
.of discovering frogs in the backyard
.when it was cool to have a fake tattoo
.of choking on your first cigarette (I was 10! lolz)
.of tasting your first alcohol (I was 11)
.when love didn't mean a broken heart
.of sneaking out your bedroom window
.of awkward school dances
.of running away to the beach (or some other ridiculous place!! =P)
.of girl-only or boy-only parties
.of your first date
.of innocence
.of finger painting!
.of story-time
.of your first choir/band concert
.when you didn't know the meaning of "stress"
.of slip-n-slids
.of running through the sprinklers
.when the Gummy Bears, Care Bears, Pound Puppies, and Rainbow Brite were the best cartoons. EVER.

Soooo many more I could think up! =]

...to ask you this...

ARE YOU READY FOR SOME FOOTBALL?!?!

Cause I gotta tell ya, I am!!!! lmao

It's almost fantasy football time too! I'm so excited. I almost won last year!! Let's see how I do...I'm upset though because I don't have first pick, and I really really want AP. Grr. Oh well.... =]