I have never quite had this kind of experience. The only thing I can equate it to is realizing that my dreams are different than what I thought they were. I once dreamed of falling in love and getting married. Now I realize that its not a dream, if it happens it happens. But it will not happen until and unless I get out there and live my life. So that’s what I am trying to do. Live your life and hope that things fall into place. Its not easy, but who will help you if you do not help yourself?