August 18, 2008
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Damnit
10:50PM…
For some reason, a panic attack has just started. I can’t breathe and my heart’s beating too fast. I don’t know what brought this on. I haven’t had one in a couple of months now.Update…
I slept. I awoke to a pounding heart. Again and again tonight. I think I woke up like that at least four times. What’s wrong with me? I hate not being able to breathe like this. It’s so hard concentrating all the time… breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out. In, out. In, out. Like a mantra, keeping myself from a full-blown panic attack. If I let it get out of control, I’ll be gasping for breath. For the last 6 fucking hours.
