Okay, so I think I am officially going to study Wicca and Paganism. A lot of this has come about because of my background, having never gone to church growing up. And now that I’m older and have rational thoguht processes and can think for myself, I’ve decided that I can’t believe in something that’s basically, in my eyes, a lie. To me, I think it’s based on lies. Every attempt that archeologists have made to find ancient sites where major stories of the Bible have occured, has ended negatively for the church. Basically, nothing can really be found that supports much of what the Bible says. How many attempts have there been to find such sites? How much has ACTUALLY been found? Anyway, I can’t just blindly follow a faith where no one in it can answer my questions.

Paganism is more straightforward, and it’s just more fullfilling for me spiritually. I can’t wait to read more and learn more about this wonderful new direction my life is taking. But I’m not saying anything how I want to right now, so I’ll write more later when I’m more focused.

My aunt just gave me this kick ass camera and I can’t wait to play with it!! It’s a Canon AE-1

So, there’s been some stuff….

I think the president is mentally ill. I was watching him on FOX news and he was giving a press conference. A reporter asked him something about how the president of Venzuala or some country had called him the devil. The whole time the reporter was talking, the president was laughing and smirking. Umm….who laughs when someone calls you the devil? When they’re being serious? Besides that, he’s a horrible public speaker. He was leaning on the podium when he was talking, who does that? What kind of public speaker leans on the podium at any time, whether or not they’re talking?

I have other things to talk about, but I’m watching Chelsea Lately…

So I’ve been on Xanga for 1517 days. Holy shit man…that’s a lot of entries, a lot of shit.

Anyways, this new show The Moment of Truth looks sick and twisted. Who the fuck would do that? I wouldn’t do that for any amount of money, I don’t care if you paid me millions.

Work sucks, la di da…nothing much else to say right now. I’m just bored. I was playing Black and my eyes started to burn, plus I fuckin died at the same place twice. GAH….WTF. I needed a break from all that shit.

You know when you’ve had a really tight ponytail in all day, and then you just take it out? It feels SO good, and you just give your scalp a nice massage….ahh! lmao. Plus, my hair smells so good

I can’t wait to start up my businesses. In 10 years I’d like to be started. I just made that goal. 10 years. Can I keep it? We’ll just have to see, won’t we Hot Topic better get ready for some MAJOR competition in 10 years, you better fuckin believe it

 The Vikings won!! They killed the Lions, 42-10.  (this pic was not from today, but I love Adrian Peterson!)

So I took some pics today:

So Mike called me last night when he got off of work…well it would actually be this morning, because sometimes on Saturday nights he’s a dj, so he called me about 2 this morning. We talked for awhile, and I smiled

So anyway, the snow is finally done falling, I’d say we got about 6 inches or so. And early this morning, the plow came through our street. Um, excuse me….I’m sleeping, thank you.

My dad put up our Christmas tree last night, and the other string of lights was dead. So, only half our tree has lights.  hahhahahaha

I think I’m going to become anorexic. Like these girls that put up their xangas that are totally and completely about their weight and I lost 2 pounds yesterday, I haven’t eaten in like 6 months, I look like death and it’s beautiful. I hope to get down to 70 pounds. What do you think? Good idea, no? Well, I was being just a bit sarcastic there, but seriously. I aready sort of am. I go through periods of like 2 o 3 months with eating one meal a day or less. This month is going to be one of those times because money’s too tight to buy myself groceries. I’m not going to live on Ramen. I refuse.

“once was i made of glass/long ago/before i cracked/you made me do this/i just can’t forget the bood/the stitches/the bite marks/the kisses/the glass memories/reflecting back”- Milk of Regret-Otep

I fucking love Otep, their new album kicks ass.

Cutting cutting cutting. I stop, then I start again. I don’t think I’ll ever be fucking healthy. wtf. I have so many goddamn scars my fucking leg is riddled with them. The dull ache, the stinging in the shower, it all feels so good it scares me. And yes, I am a little bit of a masochist. To what extent I do not know.

“wake up take your pills dear/i know this time of year ain’t right for you/…/put me on a plane/fly me to anywhere/with you”

Sometimes I think my relationship with Mike is a bit unhealthy. I wait for him to call or text me, and when he does, I’m the happiest person in the world for a day. Just talking to him makes me happier. But I dont know if he returns the sentiment. wtf is wrong with me. I should just move on, shouldn’t I? Sometimes I think so, and then he calls.

It’s still snowing. I hope the roads are better by Monday morning. I don’t need to be driving with idiots. I know how to drive in the snow and sleet and slippery roads, but surprisingly there’s a lot of people that don’t. We live in fuckin Minnesota, learn how to drive.

Just chillin right now, drinking a glass of wine. What I wanna do is get drunk…but wine headaches fucking suck and so does tequila headaches, and that’s what I have….I’m not driving to the liquor store in this first winter storm….fuckin a.

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haha, it was so fuckin funny…on the news they were talking about how people were stocking up on milk and bread for the storm….like we’re gonna get fuckin 6 ft of snow and we’re gonna get snowed in our homes ….plus, they didn’t put shovels and salt on the list for essentials to have in the car for the winter emergency kit….

So it’s snowing… maybe later I’ll take some pics and post em.

The roads probably suck, good thing I’m not driving anywhere. I had some crazy dreams last night. There was a lot of bright and happy things, but I don’t remember much about them. Strange.

Anyways, now I’m just drinking coffee and watching Richie Rich, sort of reliving my childhood. Does anyone remember this movie? I used to love it, back in the day. “Good god Regina it’s a bomb!”

So it’s been quite a long time since I’ve made an actual entry in here. I guess I just don’t want to talk about my life….

Life sucks.

But anyway, I changed my profile a little bit, not that it really makes that big of a difference, because who reads this fuckin thing anyway?

So the Pope is going on some sort of rampage about atheists….that kind of pisses me off. He says that’s not a way to live your life…and excuse me Mr., but who are you to tell me how to live my life? And this whole bible thing…please. Evidently it says that people are not to judge others..but isn’t that what the Pope is doing? Judging atheists? That doesn’t make any sense, it’s like he thinks he’s above everyone else just because he’s the Pope….”Pope is dead….hello? Pope is DEAD!!” There seems to be some double talkng and double standards there.

Have you seen the Hilary Clinton nutcracker? It’s funny, you open her legs to crack the nuts

I’m talking to Mike again yay.

fuckin hiccups….

I was very happy to see that Booth and Bones have FINALLY kissed after all this time I would be very sad if the writer’s strike continues and affects my favorite shows. I can’t wait until the new year when Bones starts back up again…

Some of where I’ve been and what I’ve been doing….