August 19, 2007

• hurt

  Why does life have to hurt so bad?

  Why do I let people get so close to my heart? They encroach in my space, unbidden, unwanted. I let people get too close, way too close. Why do I care for everyone so much? Why do I invite myself to be hurt? These situations could be so avoidable…if only I didn’t care. Why do I care? I shouldn’t care so much, I let it rule me. Anxiety attacks, sadness, tears, regret. I shouldn’t let myself care so. I need to pull away from people again, it’s essential to my survival. I’m alone, and I always will be.

   

   

   

  I can’t beathe right now.

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