Month: December 2005

  • Hey…Merry Christmas. Some families, like mine, are full of bullshit. My mom’s side is worse than my dad’s, but ya.


    I learn something new everyday. I finally know why Karen (my dad’s sister) hates us so much. My parents had me pretty young, and didn’t have their lives together, so my grandma helped out me and my dad when my parents split. Karen got jealous because grandma didn’t help out her and her son. Or something like that. See, grandpa always favored Roger (one of my dad’s brothers) and Karen, because they graduated high school and they’re so fucking perfect in his eyes, never ever did anything wrong. Even if they did, my grandpa would play dumb and not live in reality. But grandma was the opposite, she favored my dad, the screw up. So lines were drawn and all that bullshit. Karen feels that we got too much help from grandma, and both her and Roger think they’re better than we are. But hey, Matt, my cousin and Karen’s son, is a year or two older than me. He’s a complete LOSER. He dropped out of high school, won’t get his GED, doesn’t work…no one hears from him for months at a time… I work full time, I’ve had the same job for over a year, I help my dad out with rent, I pay my own cell bill, I pay the regular phone bill, I’m going to tech school in the spring….they ARE NOT better than me. Karen’s husband spends all of his money on CD’s, I mean wtf. He’s got literally HUNDREDS of cd’s. probably closer to thousands. They bought a plasma tv….and don’t even have comfortable or nice furniture to enjoy it on……


    Whatever.


    Now, my mom’s side of the family is fucked up too. They pick serious fights for no reason and won’t talk to each other for months, sometimes over a year. How fucked is that?


    WHATEVER.


     


     


    But my dad’s awesome. I got exactly what I wanted: I got this leather backpack that I really really wanted from Wilson’s. It’s one of those one’s that goes across your shoulder, and it’s made to look vintage, it’s awesome. I got a few other things, but nothing’s as good as that one


     


    Ashley got an IPod for Christmas from dad…now I want one. I told dad I want one for my birthday


     


     


    MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

  • Painted Pain on a Canvas


     


    Empty motions of the day,


    Trances at the wall


    She lets the blade fall from her cold fingers


    Crimson blood falls in waterfalls


    Rubies sparkle and shine in her mind


    Closes her eyes and sees


    Painted pain on a canvas


    Significance runs as meaninglessness encroaches on old territory


    Running a marathon does not compare


    Breathe deep and hard


    Slipping away into oblivion


    No tears are shed as fallen angels whisper in her ear


    Black wings beat her unconscious


    Pain, wonderful and sweet


    It’s better than the torture endured a lifetime ago


    Sweet surrender to the darkness,


    Leaving rubies and crimson tears behind

  • Ok, so I made this new layout and I think it’s fuckin AWESOME!!!!


    So, what do you think?