June 30, 2005
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-Loss-
the causer if chaos is your demon
your pet
but you have no control over it
it runs free in your blood
the look you create decieves
innocence has no face here
fear of the unknown makes you flee
neglect is the black mold in the forgotten corners
growing with a red hot fever
forgetting the childish games played there
echoes from childhood reverberate in the empty rooms
unknown enemies soon forgotten
mold spreading out
making you forget
the house you grew up in no longer exists
nothing but fear remains
nightmares come and go
in the recesses of your mind
childlike laughter dies with innocence
consumed with rage you strike out
at no one in particular
reeling from the pain
doctor please prescribe me something
loss of blood to the head
bleeding and fractured skull
face bashed in
beauty unknown
please kill the pain
please kill me
this loss is too much to bear
-Make Me Cry-
the gates of hell have opened
unleashing you
please take me away
abuse me, hurt me
make me cry
don’t deny me the physical pain
it’s more bearable than this
stab me, hit me, kill me,
murder me in my sleep
don’t stop this abuse
tear into me with sharp claws,
rip open my skin
bash my head in
break my legs
eat my fingers
but please don’t tell me i’m beautiful,
i won’t believe it
don’t tell me i’m smart,
i’ll say something stupid
don’t waste your breath on me
don’t tell me i’m nice,
i’ll say something mean
don’t tell me i have beautiful eyes,
they’ll turn to ice
don’t tell me i’m funny,
i’ll tell you don’t lie
don’t tell me you’re being honest,
i’ll know you’re lying
and most of all,
please don’t tell me you love me,
i’ll never speak to you again
“World So Cold”
When passion’s lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world
This cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we’ve done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long
Fever inside the storm,
So I’m turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
‘Cause I’m through mending the wounds of us
Keep your thorns
‘Cause I’m running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold
burning whispers, Remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by
The cause,
I’ve left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I’m turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
‘Cause I’m through mending the wounds of us
Keep your thorns
‘Cause I’m running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold
I’m flying, I’m flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold
Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don’t want any part of depression or
Darkness, I’ve had enough
sick and tired, bring the sun, or I’m gone,
Or I’m gone
I’m backing out, I’m no pawn,
No mother-fucking slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don’t give a shit about
Anything
Backing out, giving up, no mother-fucking
Slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don’t give a shit about
Anything,
I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it’s safer and calmer,
I’m turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
‘Cause I’m through mending the wounds of us
I’m running away,
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold
I’m flying, I’m flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(Fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold
