Lookit this awesome site I've created!!!! It took me hours...now I must go to sleep....tomorrow I gotta work....yay for me.

I just got done watching The Cowboy Way.....it was ok, but it made me think about how hot cowboys are....omg.

Hollaback Girl
Gwen Stefani

Uh huh, this is my shit
All the girls stomp your feet like this

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna to happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl

Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]

I heard that you were talking shit
And you didn't think that I would hear it
People hear you talking like that, getting everybody fired up
So I'm ready to attack, gonna lead the pack
Gonna get a touchdown, gonna take you out
That's right, put your pom-poms downs, getting everybody fired up

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna to happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl

Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]

So that's right dude, meet me at the bleachers
No principals,no student-teachers
Both of us want to be the winner, but there can only be one
So I'm gonna fight, gonna give it my all
Gonna make you fall, gonna sock it to you
That's right I'm the last one standing, another one bites the dust

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna to happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl

Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]

Let me hear you say this shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
(This shit is bananas)
(B-A-N-A-N-A-S)

Again
This shit is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S
(This shit is bananas)
(B-A-N-A-N-A-S)

A few times I've been around that track
So it's not just gonna to happen like that
Because I ain't no hollaback girl
I ain't no hollaback girl

Ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit [x4]

I'm puttin more songs on my thinger there...I ain't done yet, but I gotta go to bed...gotta work in the morning! whoohoo!!!

So today was really busy. I never stopped moving, never ran out of work. I probably walked about 5 miles today at work. I brought a frozen water bottle to work today and that was the best. I love water like that. But then I got a splitting headache...because I didn't drink as much caffiene as I usually do. Caffeine headaches are the worst!

This is the book I was talking about yesterday.....I would definately recomend it to everyone to read.

I read a book today. It made me think:

It was about a young girl who lived in a Christian home. Her parents were involved in church in every way. She felt like she was evil because her mother told her all the evil thoughts that go through the minds of those going to Hell. Her older brother would physically abuse her and her sister when their parents weren't home. When she was 12, she started drinking. Then she started smoking pot. She did so many drugs when she was 14 and in ninth grade that she got kicked out of school. She was dating this boozer at the time, who introduced her to this other junkie. She decides she's going to leave her boyfriend. She has plans to hang with some other friends later that day. Her boyfriend was physically abusive and when she told him that she was leaving him, he went beserk. He eventually ended up cracking her skull by slamming her head into the side of his stucco house. She blacks out and wakes up to find him crying and hugging her on his front stoop. Her friends show up and get her away from him. She starts hanging with this junkie guy her ex had introduced her to. She starts doing lines of cocaine and smoking crack and doing acid. Her life is nothing. She blacks out a lot and doesnt remember huge chunks of her days. She gets into a lot of trouble with the law and is a very violent, angry young woman. She's so thin from drugs and she never eats or sleeps because the drugs keep her awake. She's ordered to go to treatment. She refuses to go along with the program and is percived as cold and aloof. She gets out and starts using again. But it's not the same after not being high for 3 or 4 weeks. She stumbles along in life and gets into more and more trouble, in and out of treamtment. She latches onto the director or something of this one place and she trusts him like she trusts no one else. It's brought up that maybe her father sexually abused her when she was younger. She refuses to believe it at first, but then after a long time, she realizes that it's true. She relapses many times before she finally stops. She moved away from where she lives and started over.
It was a very hard book to read. It was very powerful. I would recomend it to everyone to read, if I could only remember what it's called. When I was finished, I became very depressed. I thought about myself and about my mother. I tried to figure out why I can't remember most of my childhood. I have random memories, and most of them are bad. Was it really so bad that I can't remember it? What happened to me that was so traumatic for all those years? I finally understood why people can't stop using and why it's so easy for them to go back to it. I thought about my mother and how I want to help her. If I send her to treatment, she'll be very angry with me. Drugs and alcohol are her release. I want her to stop all that and be a real mother. She probably will never talk to me again. I can say that I don't care, but in reality, I do.

Well, yesterday, we went to the Science Museum, and watched 2 movies in the Omnitheater. That was fun. We walked around a little bit before, and learned some interesting things, none of which I remember. But the first movie we watched was called Journey Into Amazing Caves. It was so beautiful. They went into an ice cave, that was so gorgeous. Then they went into some underwater caves, which were scary. Then we watched the Kilamenjaro one, which was ok. I liked the caves one better. Then we headed home and stopped in Maple Grove for dinner. Maple Grove in MN is like the food capital of the state. And shopping area. There has to be 50 restuarants and more stores in this little area of the town. Well, that's not true. The skyways is probably the best. Or the MOA. I haven't been there in years. Then there's the Albertville Outlit Mall, the biggest outlit mall in MN, I think even the US. I love shopping.

Anyway, I'm kinda tired.

Today me and my dad are planning on getting a hold of my sister Ashley, and going to St. Paul to the Science Museum to see some films at the Omnitheater, and maybe going shopping in the skyway. I haven't done that since I was young, and I don't remember it.

I'm very sad right now.

And I have a headache.

I have childhood memories...ones that I don't know what they mean.

People who talk to me on Yahoo tell me I'm cute because I have my pic on there. I don't think so, but I just got the third one.

I have the day off today. Yay.

Cleaning.....is not very fun.