March 13, 2005
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This book is really hard to fuckin read. It’s so correct it’s eerie. Everything so far is so right its scary….I have to stop a lot to just cool down and chill out because it’s too painful to read all at once. It’s about my mother and how she is and how her words and actions make me feel and how I react to them and how I feel about myself as a result. It’s not strictly for BPD parents…it’s also for behavior that’s similar to the behavior expressed when someone has BPD. It sounds like my mom has BPD, but I can’t be certain because she’s never been diagnosed with it by a certified doctor….I don’t think she’s ever been to a therapist….but I don’t know because I don’t really know the reality of my mom’s life. She makes shit up and I think she actually believes everything she makes up, so I don’t know her real experiences. She twists everything to make it seem how she wants it to seem and lies about things.
It’s really hard reading this book.
