Work sucked today. There was nothing to do. Well, we jave stuff to do, but we can't do any of it until we get an ok from the people upstairs, which is taking forever. So what's gonna happen is we aren't going to have anything to do then on Monday we'll have the ok to do everything, then we'll be running around with our heads cut off trying to finish for the drive that starts on Tuesday. What they're doing, is having us train about 8 temps, which we've been doing all week, then have us and those 8 train the 40 that are coming in on Tuesday. And the drive lasts a month. I don't agree with that. The temps...i hate saying this, but it's true...are clueless. They have no idea what's going on. It's the dumbest idea I've ever heard of. I've been answering the same questions over and over by the same people. It's asinine...you expect people to learn all this shit in a week to train to others?! I've been working in that department 3-3 1/2 months and I still don't know everything! But whatever, it's out of my hands.

Everytime I watch American Idol, I wanna sing. So I do, I sing and sing and sing til I get so tired I gotta go to bed then I wake up in the morning with a hoarse voice. I think Carrie Underwood should win. She's got an amazing voice.

So what's with all the accidents at work?? Ken nearly cut his finger off today. He's a level three (a forklift driver). He hadda go to the hospital and get 10 stitches. I was in a good mood today though. And when I'm in a good mood, I get kinda crazy. Crazy happy, though, not crazy psycho. So that's some good news.

And I talked to Rob last night! omg that made me happy.....yay! He doesn't hate me!

My hair is wet. I just got outta the shower. And it's cold outside. My jacket is in the car. Nice place for it, huh? I thought so too.

my eyes:

How sad is this??? And I swear to God I was honest on it!

Fallin

Alicia Keys

I keep on fallin’
In and out of love 
With you
Sometimes I love ya
Sometimes u make me blue
Sometimes I feel good
At times I feel used
Lovin you darlin’
Makes me so confused
 
I keep on 
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I'm lovin' you
  
Oh, oh , I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure
And cause me so much pain
Just when I think
I've taken more than would a fool
I start fallin’ back in love with you
 
I keep on 
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I'm lovin' you
  
Oh baby
I, I, I, I’m fallin’
I, I, I, I’m fallin’
Fall
 
I keep on 
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I'm lovin' you
 
I'm fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I'm lovin' you
 
I'm fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I'm lovin' you

So, work was ok. Better than yesterday. Rusty got into an accident on fis forklift. Wasn't his fault at all....He was in the trailer of a truck on the forklift and the truck driver pulled away with Rusty in it and he fell out. He hadda go to the hospital and get checked out. wOw.

Cindy keeps getting surprised when I do a good job. Does that mean I usually do a bad job?

I was hyper for part of the day at work. But inside I still feel horrible. It's only the outside that's happy. Whatever.

Every morning, I find it harder and harder to wake up in the morning. I want to keep sleeping. Sleeping is better than living. Besides that, I'm very tired all the time.

Work sucked today. Major. I was okay in the morning, then for no reason at all, I got extremely depressed. For the rest of the day and nothing went right at all. Rusty was talking to me and then someone else came along and he just stopped talking to me to talk to someone else. Everyone asked if I was ok. The word "fine" came out of my mouth too many times. Also, "nothing" in conjunction with the question: "What's wrong?"

What IS wrong with me anyway? Can't I ever be happy? Ugh. whatever.