December 11, 2004

• So shopping was really fun. We went to the Albertville Outlet Mall. We went in not even half the stores and it took us three hours. We were there til all the stores closed. I spent the rest of my money, but luckily yesterday was pay day. Jenny and I get along really well. She’s gonna invite me to her bday party…and lemme see. We’re gonna have a drinking party one of these days. My dad calls me a boozer and I don’t even drink. Hmmm….hahaha

  
  

  Yesterday we talked all day. For hours. We had no work, so we stood at tables facing each other, labeling 2,100 key chains, took forever. So while we were labeling, we talked. I told her a lot about me…yeah.

  
  

  And even when I’m surrounded by people, I feel so alone. It’s the worst feeling in the world. I feel so sad. I’m unhappy. Jennifer (a different person from Jenny) told me one day that she could tell I was very unhappy. And stuff.

  
  

  And some people really annoy me. Name starts with….nevermind. Some people know who I’m talking about. Forget it.

  
  

  Whatthefuckever.

  
  

  Last Resort
  
  Cut my life into pieces
  This is my last resort
  Suffocation no breathing
  Don’t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
  
  This is my last resort
  
  Cut my life into pieces
  I’ve reached my last resort
  Suffocation no breathing
  Don’t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
  Do you even care if I die pleading
  Would it be wrong, would it be right
  If I took my life tonight
  Chances are that I might
  Mudilation out of sight
  And I’m contimplating suicide
  
  ‘Cause I’m losing my sight, losing my mind
  Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
  Losing my sight, losing my mind
  Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
  
  I never realized I was spread too thin
  Till it was too late and I was empty within
  Hungry, feeding on my chaos and living in sin
  Downward spiral, where do I begin
  It all started when I lost my mother
  No love for myself and no love for another
  Searching to find a love upon a higher level
  finding nothing but questions and devils
  
  ‘Cause I’m losing my sight, losing my mind
  Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
  Losing my sight, losing my mind
  Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
  
  Nothing’s alright, nothing is fine
  I’m running and I’m crying
  I’m crying, I’m crying, I’m crying, I’m crying
  
  I can’t go on living this way
  
  Cut my life into pieces
  This is my last resort
  Suffocation no breathing
  Don’t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
  
  Would it be wrong, would it be right
  If I took my life tonight
  Chances are that I might
  Mudilation out of sight
  And I’m contimplating suicide
  
  ‘Cause I’m losing my sight, losing my mind
  Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
  Losing my sight, losing my mind
  Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
  
  Nothing’s alright, nothing is fine
  I’m running and I’m crying
  
  I can’t go on living this way
  
  Can’t go on living this way
  Nothing’s alright

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