Ug...stuff.

Thank you everyone...I honestly didn't believe that the poem was that good, but I guess it is. I wrote it in about 8 minutes or a little more, right here in this little box.

I haven't been doing much of anything lately. Cleaning, hangin out, chillin, I rode horses on Tuesday with Tabitha. I'm still really sore. I rode Harley, this monster of a horse, all by myself! When I've never ridden a horse alone before...it was pretty exciting. Good times good times...

Today I have lunch with my mother. I dunno what to expect. Gah.....

Thank you.

The Box

she has a broken spirit
she has a wonded soul
nothing can fix her
no tears are shed
they have all been cried
only blue pools of despair
they are bright, sad pools
she's so broken
but still she goes on
she doesn't ask for much
her pleas go unheard
a little girl
locked in a room
with nothing but a box
the box has been opened
but now it is closed
the secrets held within
are silent again
she sits in the middle of the room
holding the box in her hands
the door is locked
only a few can enter
but all who have
have broken her tiny litte heart
her eyes stare at the box
it is quite small
for all the secrets held within
she keeps the box safe
she forever listens
listens for the knock at the door
somehow hoping this knock sounds different
no longer hollow like all the others
she's patient in her wait
she never moves
her eyes never leave the box
her broken soul
and wounded spirit
keep her there
there are no windows in this room
it is white
plain
the door is white
plain
in her mind's eye
colors are splashed all over
blues pinks oranges reds yellows greens and purples
her pain is kept in this box
she wished they all could see
see her pain and cry with her
but they don't care
she waits
energy builds inside of her
tension
f
e
a
r
anxiety
she waits
f
e
a
r
she waits
she throws the box at the door
a scream
long
never ending
her box is open once again
her broken spirit
and wounded soul
f
e
a
r
she sits
calm
her box is shattered
forever open
the scream forever heard
she cries

I'm writing! whoot whoot...doing laundry, listening to some good ol country music...and I can't BELIEVE that I'm writing in a notebook...this boggles my mind...I haven't done this in...a veeeeeery long time....maybe even years.....have fun yall....

"Somebody in the next car
Somebody on the mornin train
Somebody in the coffee shop
That you walk right by everyday
Somebody that you look at
But never really see
Somewhere out there is somebody"

Somebody- Reba McEntire

http://www.valleyfair.com

Okay, yesterday....I woke up at about 7:45, took a shower n stuff. At about 9 I went over to my mom's house to try and get some summer clothes and my swimsuit. Yeah, I couldn't get in. So I had to go to Target in Rochester and spent the rest of my gift cards and then some buying a swimsuit and a new outfit because it was HOT and I was not going to Valleyfair in jeans and a tshirt....so yeah. Got to my step dad's new place, it's pretty nice. It's on a farm with two horses. Chilled for a bit then we were off! We met his friend Gerri and his son Josh at this restuarant and rode with him the rest of the way. Blah blah blah....first we went on Power Tower...hell yeah baby!!! Sweetness....and then Wild Thing and stuff....I went on Steel Venom...that was the shit...Had a pretty good day in between the car rides....during the car rides I had a bit of bad PMS then I had a huge migrane the ride home. Got home about 11...Bob was here...hahaha. And I was so tired hyper silly.....then I mixed it with some caffiene...couldn't stop laughing. He thought I was drunk "I'm sorry, I'm all out of vodka!"-Son in Law. But I wasn't, I promise.

Then today I went to where Miranda works with everyone so they could see Emma. Then I took Alexis to her other grandma's house and went to Meagan's for the parade. Anyways, that was a good one, about 2 hours long. I got no candy...but that's ok. And I got a Vikings game scheduale...that was cool. I wore my cowboy hat!!!!!!! hoo hoo!!! I got a little sunburned yesterday and I little today, but it's definately not as bad as it's been. I've been burned so bad before I blistered...this isn't bad at all...anyways, gonna go now and chill or somethin...try and call Brent about working....have fun everyone!

I am sooooooooo tired.

I'll talk about Valleyfair later...today...since it is past midnight...bedtime all....goodnight...

Okay...well, no, Rob and I didn't talk on the phone for 7 1/2 hours...we talked online. And when you think about it, 6 hours is one quarter of a day. That's very long. It would have been 8 hours, but I took about half an hour to write something in the middle of our conversation.

Today...well, yesterday, when everyone reads this...Miranda came home with Emma. She is the cutest, sweetest little girl I've ever seen. I fed her and held her for awhile. She fell asleep as I was holding her...awww.

I'm not mad at anyone for not answering me...its all good....

And I have a lotta lotta reading to do, damnit. Everyone chooses to write a ton on a day when I was on the computer a total of 20 minutes...after my conversation, I mean...grrr... And tomorrow (today) I'm going to Valleyfair, a theme park here in Minnesota, and I'm gonna be gone all day long. So then I'll have even more reading to do...Cheesefest is our small town carnival here....we celebrate cheese...rides, smelly carnies, mini donuts and cheesecurds, rigged games...whoot!!! hahaha....well, have fun kiddies, and PLEASE don't write TOO much! lol.....jk.....

YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!! hahaha. Okay, my record for the longest conversation was 6 hours. I broke that this morning by an hour and a half!!!!!!!!!! Yep, 7 and a half hours of talking to Rob. He's soooo sweet....awwww. And for the most part, it was 7 and a half hours of happiness and happy talk. I got tired a few times....but it seems like whenever I talk to him, I'm not tired. I was happy. Took a little nap....yep.

It's my dad's birthday today and I just called him to say Happy Birthday. Cheesefest started today too. Too bad I have no money to go to it...but oh well....Have a nice day everyone!!

Frozen

she smiles
her face is blue
her tears are frozen
her blue eyes stare
stare straight into yours
they're so cold
frozen in time
wide open
she can see through you
into your soul
you marvel at her beauty
but you're vulnerable
because she can
see right through you
new tears run down for you
they freeze
she is so cold
but she cares for you
you shiver in the cold air
you can't help but stare
stare at her frozen beauty
and her blue face smiles
while her tears freeze

I'm watching Wild Hearts Can't Be Broken...they don't have it on the thinger! It's one of my most favorite movies.