I can’t find happiness right now. It’s not there. My mom hasn’t left yet, but she’s ready to. I think she’s sleeping. Can I run away to someone? Please? All I wanna do is run away. Get away. I wanna wipe these tears away and smile through the clouds, but I can’t. This stupid lump in my throat won’t go away. I need I need I need I need… I need to get away. I think I’m done with everything. Why try anymore? I’m done trying to be happy, done trying to put on that smile, done trying to make people laugh…no one around me cares. I’m suffocating and no one notices. Is that because I hide it so well? Is it my fault? I’m just done… whatever.

Oh… and I’m sorry for being such a sarcastic cynical pessimestic bitch.

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