April 28, 2004

• I’m very very depressed today.

  
  

  “So maybe I am bound By fate
  A problematic scarring induced by hate
  It never seems to all pan out
  Is that what all this teaching is needed to scout
  You seemed to have a bad effect
  Your rules and contradictions I would neglect
  Though not my fault you made me feel
  Like my own education wasnt truly real
  Then you came right in tearing out my soul
  How could all this loss be your only goal
  I`m left standing here desperate in the cold
  Since you took your life mine has not been whole
  So there I stood a scolded child
  The reasons never questioned my pains been filed
  Inside this place that makes me feel
  I learned life is unfair and that is very real
  [Chorus]
  While you try to overcome the lesson
  Makeing the most of those questions that just
  Keeps me guessing
  I`m looking longer, harder, further than I ever have
  Solitude breaking me down you always seemed glad
  To put me down and stick me in that little pit
  Personal growth as a child that mattered not a bit
  Then I became the person that you hated most
  Disrespecting the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
  A small example of what the things you`ve done to me
  Have changed in my life and changed the things
  I`ll never be
  I`ll never be
  [Chorus]“

  
  

  “No one knows what it’s like to be the bad man to be the sad man behind blue eyes no on know what it’s like to be hated to be faded…”

  
  

  - The Who, Behind Blue Eyes, Then and Now

  
  

  “I cry when angels deserve to die…”

  
  

  - System of a Down, Chop Suey!, Toxcicity

  
  

  “The silence is what kills me…”

  
  

  - Staind, For You, Break the Cycle

  
  

  “I never meant to fade away…”

  
  

  - Staind, Fade, Break the Cycle

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