yeah. Missed a lotta school lately cuz of sickness. My car door was frozen shut this morning. Had to catch a ride from Jo, which sucks cuz I hafta leave early...doc apt...I left a msg. on my mom's voicemail, telling her she needs to pick me up...grr...I hope she get's it...bell's gonna ring soon...

I was looking up toxic black mold on the internet today...here's what I found:

These are things that happen when Stachybotrys release myotoxins (poisins):

• Nasal and sinus congestion


• Cough


• Wheezing or other breathing difficulties


• Sore/hoarse throat


• Skin and eye irritation


• Upper respiratory infections, including sinus

Mold is everywhere. More than 100,000 species of mold have been identified in water-damaged buildings across the nation. Of these, over 100 mold species are known to cause a human illness/disease and or response. The most common types of mold that are known to cause a wide array of injuries include Stachybotrys, Aspergillus, Penicillium, and Tricholderma.

Toxic mold exposure can cause indoor air quality problems that result in serious pulmonary, neurological, digestive and skin related illnesses. An individual's response to mold exposure can be unpredictable. While some people seem to suffer no ill effects from prolonged exposure, others become severely debilitated from only limited exposure. One's response to exposure is affected by the individual's own immunities, allergies and sensitivities.

Physical examinations, blood tests, allergy tests and other objective assessments provide information that may be helpful in linking exposure to mold and allergy, inflammatory or other toxic effects that may occur as a result of the exposure. Some mold exposure victims suffer from cognitive impairment secondary to toxic exposure. Neuropsychological testing is helpful to link these related symptoms to the toxins from the mold exposure.

So yeah. I was basically dying in my house because myotoxins are poisin. The amount of mold in the house is far too much to get rid of, way too expensive for the amount. From what I've found out, I want my mom to sue the construction company. It took them over a year to build our house, exposing it to a ton of water, which is what helps mold in starting to grow.

12 days til my birthday...

kurchaah.

nm goin on. I'm staying at Miranda's house again cuz my house was literally killing me. There's black mold all up in there. I've got it in my lungs and in my throat, growing there. It took away my voice and I hacked some of it up. It was so disgusting. My mom's been looking all day for 2 days for an apartment or a house or a townhouse...something. Anyway, she's looking all day today again. I'm going shopping after school with Miranda, Jo, and Mary, their mom. Malikai (sp?), my mom's friend, gave me some money to buy a book on Thai Buddhism. So that's what I'm gonna buy. So yay. I'm kinda tired. This is my first day back to school in a week. Last time I was here was Tuesday last week. Been sick...ack. Lost my voice and everything. I could only whisper for a coupla days....blah

My eyes are on the verge of closing and surrendering to the sweet, dark, unconciousness of sleep.

I live right by Rochester.

2 weeks til my birthday

I think I might kill myself. I'm in the mood where knives look sharp and pills look tasty

so yeah. lemme tell ya something. never ever have I ever had a conversation as long as the one I just had. Seriously. It was over 5 1/2 hours long. Of all the times I talked to Chris online, never had we talked so long. And when we talked on the phone, it was longer, but I did all the talking cuz he was so shy. But omg. And I had another conversation that was 4 hours long with someone else. Wow. Anyway, I have to sleep before I drop dead. And yes, I took my pills this morning...

I am so fuckin pissed. I missed making an entry today(Fri...) cuz of this damn thing that took all day!!! GRRRRR!

15 days til my birfday!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17 days until I'm 18!!

Okay, even though I haven't been taking my Lexapro, I feel alright. No major crying or anything like last time I forgot for a week...anyway, things are finally starting to look up for me!! I can't believe it..everything is happening so fast! My mom and I are moving to the town where she grew up. We are starting a business of our own...we're renting a town house or a small house..she's buying me a new car (not brand new, but ya know..newer than what I have now...), we're getting new cell phones tomorrow at the Sprint Store and sharing a plan. She gonna trade in her monster of a vehicle and buying a new (again, not brand new...) car. We plan on moving on the first of April. Hmm. I'll be commuting to school every day...the 40 minute drive one way, to finish high school in Dink Town (sorry if I offend anyone...). I'm just so excited! After my doc appt. tomorrow, we're gonna look for cars until we go to pick up Rach.

Today, we went to the Sprint Store to pay her bill for the month, and holy holy. There was the hottest guy I've ever seen! He worked there...and being the flirt and cupid that my mom is, she teased this guy about being cute and everything and how he would be the perfect match for me...and this poor guy turned so bright red !! But hot damn!  anyway, my throat was starting to feel better when I left the house with my mom...and now it's starting to hurt again. So I just took 4 IBprofin (sp???) and son of a mother does it hurt!

18 days until I'm 18!!!

crazy days. so yeah. I stayed home today...being ill really sucks...went to the doc, no strep...viral infection in my throat...I hate it when they tell me that...