Okay. So I fell asleep at 10:15....my mother woke me up at 10:20. So I stay up until 2 in the morning cuz after someone wakes me up, I can't get back to sleep. I woke up at 7. So I got 5 hours and 5 minutes of sleep last night.

I went to Wal-Mart last night and found this totally cute outfit. It's a salmon colored tank and then I'm wearing this black and white stripped excercise outfit. The top is a tight zip-up number with a hood, so I have it partially zipped up and the tank hangs out on the bottom of the hoodie. And then I'm wearing my bright green sandals that my sister got me for my birthday. So yeah. It's cute cute cute cute....and not to mention...it's cute!! (not trying to mock Jessica Simpson or anything....)

Yeah. Saturday night I stayed out until 2:30. I was gambling. Made some money. I made $23, but when I include what I spent on Bingo, I only made $7, but oh well. I had fun. Hooked up with some people from school. Had a few laughs. It was great. But I like playing slots alone, without people looking over my shoulder all the time. I wanted to play Blackjack, but all the goddamn tables were full. Grrr....

And today I'm skipping out on study hall here in a lil bit, and I gonna go quilt my quilt. Hehe. Anyway, I just could not get to sleep last night!! Grr. So now I'm way tired. But I have my class ring on and it gives me strength..."I'm going to graduate...I'm going to graduate." Repeating my mantra over and over again....blah!!!

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Finally...no homework for the weekend....yay!!! Just been chillin n blah blah blah..............

lol. Yes, the hair thing is a little weird, but he's seriously obsessed with hair. He twirls his own hair all the time...when he's bored, anxious, or just whenever. But everyone who knows him is just used to it...like Joy says all the time. Anyway, had some weird dreams last night. Don't remember any of them...but they were weird. And doesn't everyone dream in color all the time? I find it odd that people dream in black and white. I always dream in color. Anyway...we're off to get Rachel...as soon as I can get ahold of her...grr.

I'm writing right now. For the first time in forever. And I love it...I'm starting another story. I hope I can finish this one...so yeah. Everyone tried to make me feel better today. And my coach said that she was happy to hear me laughing on the bus ride home last night. But I said that was Tym's fault, cuz he was making me laugh. I don't know why everyone hates him so much. Yeah, he's a spaz and can get annoying, but no one ever looks at the positives of anyone. He's funny and he makes me laugh when I feel bad, which is nice. Not many people can do that. He's such an oddball though. He just walks up to you and starts petting your hair when he's talking to you. Well, if you're a girl, I suppose. Anyway, it felt nice to just laugh when I was feeling so depressed about everything. This week has just been such an off week. Grr.

I am so fucking depressed right now........

So I went to the speech meet, hoping to do good, willing myself to do good. So the first and second rounds go good. The third round, I forgot my speech, and had to freeze for half a minute to try and remember it....horrible. So afterwards, I go out and I cry. Then I talk to the judge from 3rd round. She told me that I did good considering, and she only docked me a coupla points or whatever. So I'm feelin good...awards roll around...and guess what. I don't make it to sections. I did last year, and I was a rookie last year. So fuck. I'm feelin pretty suicidal. When I got on the bus, I cried some more. The bus ride home was an hour and a half...very foggy out......But what makes it worse is that when I get home, there's no one here. And I'm really feelin like I can't be alone right now. But whatever...I kill myself, I kill myself. Stay tuned until whenever to see if I'm still around.

I can spell Fox...F-O-X. Oh yeah.....

Speech sub-sections tonight. I'm scared. Nervous, excited....There's a line in Armegeddon...."I'm about 98% scared and 2% excited...Or I could be 2%scared and 98% excited..but that's what makes it so damn interesting..." Or it goes something like that. Movie buff...right here!! ^_~

I slept in this morning. My mom wrote me a note saying that I had a Dr.'s appt. haha. Well, it was her fault anyway. She made me get outta my bed at 3 in the morning so she could sleep in it and she promised that she'd wake me up at 6...well, she woke me up at 7:46...so she said I could skip 1st hour, whicn is a study hall anyway...and blah blah blah... I have nothing else to say right now....sorry...

Watching You've Got Mail...good movie....blah

I have business ideas coming out of my ears right now...some good stuff here. I dunno why...usually the night is when I flow with ideas and creativity...I'm such a night owl. But it's fun.......in the summer, when there's no school.

OMG. I'm so excited for Miranda! And Emily...and anyone else who's got the sickness...but omg. I love babies and little kids, they're so cute! And Sam has an egagement ring for sale...$500...haha!! She just asked me to throw that in for her...lol.

yearbook stuff....